Suboxone cold turkey experience?

My Dr told me that the fda wants them to switch everyone to the films! I dont know how true that is because I think my Dr is full of it!! When I switched I felt like the films werent working at all! They wouldnt stay under my tongue and I was getting blisters... which I also informed my Dr. He kept telling me they would go away. Well anyway what should I expect and is this as bad as its going to get? I know cold turkey isnt good but its the only way for me to mentally do it! Im also having surgery in 5 days so I didnt want it to
Affect my surgery! Ive heard horror stories on here! Thank you!

Went cold turkey five days ago and every day has been just an uncomfortable mess. I have not slept in over 30 hours which is something I liked about Subs - I was impressed on how I could stay up working and exceed expectations whether work related or family. Now the crap has hit the fan and drinking or smoking marijuana has not helped in the slightest. Taking showers and chain smoking cigarettes gives little comfort besides the activity of.

Sitting around makes it worse, so I have been trying to sweat as much as I can hoping that it might clear out some toxins. It's pretty bad - been doing them for over a year, plus other drugs on top (cocaine but very rarely), OC's when I was out of subs, xanax. Any pill I could crush I at least gave it a try. My friends gave them to me for free, and was having a great time except for the nod-off of OC's. Subs made me feel energized.

Now to the part about going Cold Turkey.

Day 1: Was still high from some coke and oc's I did. Didn't matter much. Drank liquor and didn't like it. Weed made me more paranoid than usual.

Day 2: Holy hell, it's like I woke up in somebody elses body. Anxiety through the roof, lack of interest to any friends or phone calls - even the good ole' television proved to be useless. Watching movies with sad plot lines left me a bit tear jerked but I held it in a few times. Took at least 5-6 showers that day and used ice packs on the whirling twitches of my arms and legs.

Was offered some meth to help but turned it down, barely.

Day 3: The pit in the stomach is horrible. It's like your feeling guilty and think much about the many things I have done wrong in my life. Scared to take any pills/drugs to cure the agony. Lots of water, and a half a fifth of vodka/mixed drinks that did nothing but made me feel weird because I was drunk without the boost of the mental stimuli. Tried to smoke weed, no help what-so-ever.

Day 4: Same as above, but with even more feeling of uselessness and that nothing will help it - discouraged/crazy-esque thoughts. Tried to stay positive by reading all the different forums and such that had conversation about it to understand what I was in for and to kick my self in the ass for allowing myself to leave recreational use to daily usage. Hoping for the feelings to sub-side with no change in motivation/mood swings.

Day 5:
No sleep at all now for 30+ hours and sweating like I was playing sports. I did notice that walking around did take away some of the worry/feeling/depression but only momentarily. Had to run around and do errands and my reflexes are not up to par. I feel disoriented and lost. Constant leg twitching up and down and smoking cigarettes like a chain. Sipping on a 32 oz of brew, I like drinking but have to choke it down now. The liquor does not help with the problem in fact I think the lack of liquor is giving the boxin a run for it's money.

Feeling a bit positive after reading more forum posts on other's experience but still have that pit in my stomache. I think that's the worst of it all, just the nauseous feeling and piercing pain. Offered Xanax to help and turned it down. Which actually for some reason in this hellish ordeal I feel empowered. I am actually scared of taking any pills to settle the feelings, a bit of a head-ache and pretty much the veil of loneliness as I try to keep the symptoms from family and hide out and hope to get through this without the knowledge of those around me.

Day 6: Going to force myself to play sports for an hour with my kid tomorrow. Then I guess we'll see.

By the way, reading all of the forums has made a huge difference in how I see the condition and know that it's not forever and that I will feel normal again. Heck I been a drug user for 12 years, I think I can get through 2 weeks or so if my secret is not found out.

i was on the phone with my friend before i took it and then after i took it since i couldnt talk while taking it and she was like wow you sound like a whole new person... now im just waiting for the spine chills to taper off and i will not be taking suboxone again unless this situation happens. do not judge me for having done this because i have disappointed myself... but i also have school and work that need to be taken care of first.

i have caved and feel disappointed... but at the same time i am not sitting here nauseated with diarrhea and chills and crying spells anymore... doesnt bother me that ive lost 10lbs in two days but ugh!!! this drug is intense... its literally like battling the devil... it is me vs. the devil right now and he is going to lose in the end.

i try to remember that god tests the ones he loves the most. i feel he has tested and tested and tested me and i have failed each one... but i have now realized that its not just him testing me... but its the way i react to each test that i have failed in. this will all change. i AM going to get off this stuff and i AM going to be clean. i know it!

i mean i am on 2mg xr xanax which really sucks but its my anti depressant and i do not abuse it..so i guess im not technically sober but i also have endless refills of take as needed that i never take... but thats for generalized panic disorder that my awesome psychiatrist is helping me with. he is the best doctor i have ever had in my life... actually literally PRIES information i have been hiding in my brain for 10 years now and makes me realize that things really did hurt me... and thats part of why i abused pain killers... i mean yea i was in constant pain so was prescribed 3 years ago... but does that i mean i had to take 4 for breakfast??? absolutely not!

i dont think of my addiction as something as serious as what other people go threw. it was getting to that point after my bf had been put into ICU for internal bleeding in the brain and thats when i was like woww this needs to stop i cant just pop 5 vicodin every time something bad happens..i wanted to cut the snakes head off before it grew into something worse. i do believe that there are people out there that get proper treatment and it helps them very much so with their life... but i also believe those people were further into a hole than i was and it gave them what they needed which is really good for them ... i just couldnt take the suboxone anymore

when i was taking the suboxone... which yes it was the sublinguil films... i would spit out the spit which helped A LOT with the constipation... i started having a bowel movement every day or every other day rather than 1 every other week it felt like.

as for suboxone not being called an opiate... im pretty sure it is an opiate. it binds to the same receptors and releases the same chemicals and therefore i call that an opiate. what we are all really missing here is dopamine. that is what the restless legs is from when you get off it... your neurotransmitters are all going crazy when you get off the meds but its incredible what the human body can do and how it can adapt... survival of the fittest? sorry just had an evolution exam lol

it is now day 10 and the only real problems i am having is restless legs beyond belief and insomnia... i have to be at work in 6 hours and work a 15 hour holiday... i think i need a new job because it doesnt help me with staying away from vicodin... i have SOO many doctors notes saying i cannot do that stuff at work such as lift 50 30lb boxes really fast before we open just to prepare for the line out the door in the morning but if i dont do the stuff at work i will be fired im afraid so it makes things harder because i am just in so much pain. i am on the search for a doctor who will do more blood work on me and test me for different things... because i believe a piece of the puzzle to my pain is missing and if i can get treated properly and not be in pain that would be great. i do not want to revert to what put me here in the first place

as for not wanting to start anything with me on this thread... there is nothing here that cannot be said... this is for everybody to read and for everybody to put their two cents in. i started this thread not only for other people but for myself as well. i want people to know what really happens when you cold turkey day by day... even though everybody is different... and i want people to know awful doctors exist and i also want ppl who read this to say how they truly feel... because honestly... none of us are wrong... except for what the chemical make up of suboxone is and how long it takes to get out of your body... because i have heard so many different things i dont even think the people who created this drug know at this point lol

its weird... because now that i am off suboxone... i feel better... it feels like my brain is making faster connections and i can do math in my head again... so i thank my insanity and pain for getting me on pain meds and i thank suboxone for getting me off pain meds... and i thank my insanity for getting me off suboxone... its an interesting way to look at it... but it has made me that much stronger and understanding to other people... it was really weird realizing i had a problem though i didnt like that very much but i also sucked it up and did something about it... which is something i have put into the back of my brain and need my psychiatrist to pry out before it gives me panic attacks for being so dumb as to letting a stupid pill control my life... everyday it was just opiates on the brain and what the heck kind of life is that???

i apologize for rambling on... keep the comments coming. it put a smile on my face to see you guys exist

Then she didn't adjust your dose, to see if they got better, or put you on subutex, to see if it was the naloxone that might be causing some of it. If you put in there whether you were taking films versus the tablets, I am sorry, I didn't see it. The films have caused some problems for some, sounds like you had the films from your description of what symptoms you had, maybe? And again, I am not trying to argue with you, I am actually very thankful you posted a time line of you coming off cold turkey and really aren't acting like your life is ending and you are in agony. Many do write horrifying statements about coming off, and then scare other people really badly, and then they freak and write here, not knowing what to do.I am also glad you wrote, even tho you had a crappy doc, if someone else see that and recognizes the patterns as those of their own doctor, they might realize they have a doctor who is in it for the money, and not to help them get off opiates. I hope you are feeling better soon, I have a friend from group who came off 40 mgs cold turkey in rehab, he actually said it wasn't too bad. I do NOT recommend that for anyone. It does have a residual effect in the body, you should be completely clear by the 24th day, that is usually for a dose or 16 mgs. The company that makes subs ( reckitt-benckiser) told a person here who called them that she had to know the very latest she could possibly test positive for it, as she had a child custody battle going on and that is the latest they told her it would be possible to find it anywhere in her body. She was actually clear in 2 weeks. Many people read these posts and never respond at all, so, I did put some info in here in case some of those read this. You are a very brave and smart person, it usually is best to taper off of it. It can be done without withdrawal, but that is another story. If you can get some walking for exercise in, I found it helped alot with the RLS you are describing, won't work overnight, but will help withing a few days, if it even keeps bothering you, you might do really fine from now on, if you are doing this well now. I am so glad you put your point of view out there. And subs patients, if your doc sounds like Parsimony, you might want to get one who actually is trying to help you. Pattishan61 God Bless you