I've been taking geodon for about a year and a half. It has put me through hell. I have terrible anxiety. I can't smile. My passion of music and writing is gone. I feel nothing. Sometimes id rather die then to live this way. I'm on 80 mg. My doctor has tried to taper me off but I always get racetrack thoughts or impulses to hit or choke people. Although I've never acted upon these thoughts. I just want to live again.