In september my doctor prescribed Vyvanse for my add and i started treatment at 30mg. The next week, she increased my dosage to 40mg and I stayed at that dosage until the end of october when i then went up to 60mg. The jump from 40mg to 60mg seemed to do the trick, my focus and energy were amazing, i was making lists and starting to organize my life.
Now I know I have a very high drug tolerance and with other drugs I have built up a resistance fairly quickly. When we increased my dosage to 60mg I expressed these concerns to my doctor since I was aware that the maximum recommended dosage is 70mg. She advised me to not worry about that since it is only a recommendation and with my weight and drug metabolization we could possibly increase further if it got to that point.
So here I am nearly one month later to the day and I feel like I'm backsliding. I'm struggling to focus and my agitation frequency and intensity has just risen dramatically. I'm sure that this is in part because of the holiday season approaching and partly because of the situational stress in my life but I also feel like I'm at my breaking point.
I have a 2 year old and when I reach these lows it's very hard for me to maintain my sanity in general, so throw a toddler and overbearing mother into the mix and the result is increasing panic attacks and overwhelming lethargy.
My plan is to get into the doctor to discuss all this with her on Friday, I'm not trying to be a hero and try to fight it on my own. I also see two therapists, one for my panic disorder and also one whom is an ADD specialist.
So, my question is...
Have any of you had the same thing happen? How fast does your tolerance build up? And how do you recognize the signs and cope with it?
I just need a sounding board with other people whom can relate. I'm the only person in my family who is treated for ADD and my familial relationships suffer because they can't relate to how I feel or why I am the way I am. The first question everyone asks when I'm having a worse day is "did you take your pills today?" and I hate that because it makes me feel like they expect the pills to be a miracle cure for my behavior and that any change in my mood is because I'm neglecting my treatment, which I have never done. That in turn makes me more angry and irate and makes it even more difficult to move forward into a good day. I'm an emotionally driven person and it makes me so sad that no one can understand and empathize with how much work it takes to make each day a good day.
I just need a friend who I can talk to and who can try to understand without judging or criticizing, but as most of you know, making friends is hard. Especially for an ADD person like me