Cialis - how do I get my free samples?

And I mean, he won't even then touch the Viagra he has left in the cabinet to help things out, he refuses to touch me at all, and he's told me he's just resolved himself to the fact that "it" simply doesn't work anymore and that we're probably just never going to have sex again, and that he's fine with it. HOWEVER, if I give him oral, he doesn't seem to have any issues getting or staying hard, and if I put naughty things on for us to watch to get things going, he gets hard fast and stays hard, but then if he tries to go for the full act itself, he's either only semi or has lost it entirely by the time he's about to "enter." I can't figure this out. It's given ME a terrible complex and made me feel undesirable, unsexy, and I've even thought at times that he must be cheating on me because he's obviously lying about his ED (so it seems), and why would he make such a production about never having sex with me again, and then refuse to touch me for months at a stretch? He insists that it has absolutely nothing to do with me and that if it still worked, we'd still have the insane sex life that we did for the first 10 years of our relationship. He's about to be 54, I'm almost 43.
So, guys - as much as I'm seeing so many of you talk about how sincerely you want to please your partners, which I don't doubt, is my situation anything that any of you can relate to at all? I mean, do any of you guys do the stuff my boyfriend does because of the way you feel from having ED? Is it embarrassment, shame, anger, or something deeper? Or do I have a more individual problem on my hands, here, like, a realistic possibility that he could be cheating? Not asking anyone to break guy code here, I just want to better understand what he's feeling and going through so I can be better supportive and find a way to help get us back to the sack again without him feeling he's gotta perform like some circus seal and make it mind blowingly amazing every single time for me to be genuinely satisfied. Cause that's another thing - guys - we women generally love sex with you guys for the loving connection you give us with it. And when you aren't able to perform how you would really like to, we still want your arms around us and other bedroom things to go down, because you've all got talents that we enjoy. So, just some food for thought on that.
Anyway, thanks for reading, and to anyone who can respond with any insight for me, I really genuinely appreciate it!