So, I 'm sure you all have seen my postings the past month. I really do have a seriouse question that I think is effecting my life and not sure if it's good or bad.
Since I started this medication, 50 mg, my energy levels are back, Ive been working 2 jobs to get extra money but it was hell before this medication because I was like, why am I so tired ? you worked 70 hours before, you were in the military you can do 2 jobs. now that my energy levels have come back on this medication I am very stressed because i am finishing 2 years of workign all night and school all day.
I spoke to my boss about it before and just today. I was like" look. i want these vacations days off, 2 in April to see my sisters baby born, week to go camping in Yellowstone with my miitary buddies in July and 2 days off in May to go to Paris for 3 days because I found a really cheap ticket and I wan tto do this for myself, that is my vacation and alone time.
I'm stressed out and I want to do these things before August. The reeason why is I will only be working for them between May and July, it's my summer break from school. My work has seniority rules. but lately on this medication it makes me very talkitive. My work not use to me talking and I am telling them my whole life. I don't mean to it just comes out with the stress and not talking to anyone for 2 years and this medication makes you talk, well that's what I I think.
so my question is, is this medication giving my faulty confidence of I can do all this this again and better now that I feel better and can focus and your just burnt out, or is this medication making me realize I wasted 2 years of my Gi Bill that i could have learned if I had this medication and you dont have to work this second job if you don't have to but your tryign to earn as much money as possible?
I'm just lost because I feel better, but then I see people look at me and sometimes I second guess myself because i'm not sure if I am bragging or just trying to talk a little about me because I never said one work..
I told my boss today I have 3 weeks left of school and my energy levels are coming back, I am sleeping better but i just have to much stress and the combination of them is not good.
Vyvanse confidence and stress?
Question posted by Anonymous on 18 April 2012
Last updated on 15 June 2013
I think my boss thinks or is starting to see a big chnage in me and not sure if he likes it becaus eof me talking a lot now and requesting all this time off. Bu ti told him. i do all this for extr amoney, I wan tto get these goals done but i need a break and if I can thave them, I can sit at home for 3 months recharge my batteris, go back to school and look for a second job a yera later because I do have a income coming in. so I said all this and I don't like the fact I am this talkitive or blunt about my life, would be better if I just talked and not baout myself, but was this wrong? and is this medication giving me faulty confidence that I can do all this tufff once I get rid of this stress I've been caring for 2 years.
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Hello DOMO79. I believe I mentioned this some time ago. Time for a re evaluation of your diagnosis and then medications. Every CNS drug you have been taking seems to help all be it short term, a few weeks and then its time to increase it, and the drug then is no longer having an effect. All within less than a span of four or five week period of time. CNS family of drugs are not meant to work in this manner. Regards, pledge
I have said this to you before. I really wonder whether ADHD is the right diagnosis for you. I am ADD, was hyper as a child but now that I am older, I just have inattentive symptoms. I have a son who was very ADHD, almost dysfunctional with it. Stimulants to us do not make us talkative and "speedy" they calm us down and make us more emotionally flat. In an ADHD brain, chemistry is different and stimulants turn on the area of the brain responsible for filtering useless information so that we can focus better instead of being bombarded by so much info. An ADHD brain is unable to filter out all the useless sensory information like the air flowing past, the temperature of the air, backgound noise cant be filtered out, we try to process everything until we go into meltdown. Stimulants allow us to begin to filter that useless sensory info. A non-ADHD brain feels the stimulant effects and will be more talkative and active.
I'm wondering if perhaps you are actully biPolar and the stimulant is putting you into a manic phase from out of a depressive stage. Depressed stage bipolar makes you want to sleep a lot and introspect where in a manic phase you can become overly confident and talkative and basically feel almost "superhuman" Stimulants in an ADHD person make them feel calmer. I dont care what another poster told you, I know personally with myself and two ADD/ADHD kids how stimulants act. I took Adderall and one of my kids was on methyphenidate and the other started with methylphenidate and moved on to Adderall as well. I felt great on Adderall. I would like to go back on it. I changed docs a while back and just never went back on it. I felt more focused and could follow through on tasks better. I felt like I had normal energy. I tend to also be depressed and have some anxiety issues. It is not unusual for a person with mental health issues to turn to drugs or alcohol in adolescence or early adulthood. We are trying to self medicate. If you do truly have ADHD you can find a lot of help on the CHADD website for Children and Adults with ADD/ADHD. Another site that is good for mental health issues is SAMHSA site-samhsa.gov-this site goes over a great amny of the mental health issues and will help you undestand which one most likely fits you. Do your own research because in many cases, psychiatrists just take your symptoms and try to decide which one you have the most characteristics of. There are no real tests to decide what you have. they go by symptomology and response to medication. I know this has been really distressing you and I really urge you to talk to your Dr and see about counseling. It is best to have not only a psychiatrist but also a counselor to help you learn coping mechanisms. The main differences between people with mental health issues and "normal" people is brain chemistry but also lack of proper coping mechanisms.
This is what I had on my mind when I said it was pushing him into mania. Both the stimulants, and the drinking. It seemed he was self medicating when he was depressed. I think there are much more appropriate meds for you to be on.
The medication does help me focus some days, it's like it makes me more alert but I have t o get good sleep and be in the mood and then it makes wonders, but today, I was tired, I was bitching all day and I think my college advisor wrote down my name, she probably thinks I was on drugs because of my mood. I was kind of defense. its just weird because some days I am happy, and some days I just bitch a lot. I don't know why, it's like I get stuck in that mood at just think it all day. but I will not be working 3 shift anymore. goign to put in my notice tomorrow and focus on school for a year.I think working all night , getting a few hours of sleep then school all day is affecting the medication and my moods. but who knows, will see
You're kind of furthering the argument for bipolar disorder. Have you ever seen a psychiatrist or psychologist?
I have to agree with Dzoo. I have spoken with you a couple of times about this. I really think she's on to something. I would really listen to this and think about it. I hope you get to feeling better soon. Ruth
I am seeing a psychiatrist that specializes in ADHD and depression/alcohol, thats why i chose here for all 3 of these. Liek I said I feel great again on this, I just wish it wouldnt mix up my moods somedays, focus comes great some days sometimes I can't even figure out a thought but one thing that it has fixed is my energy levels. I don't wake up anymore feeling like death. or hear peoples conversations and I can tal to people and look at them now, so I don't know but to me it does work but maybe Its triguring osmehting else who knows. thanks everyone for your input.
DzooBaby has commented wonderfully, as a bi-polar, ADHD (recently diagnosed) with PTSD I can't help but notice some possible mania? All I can think to add is how incredibly important it is that you maintain a regular, healthy sleeping schedule. Night shifts are especially rough on a bi-polar (if you are one).
You are taking an amphetamine and that is the normal reaction to them. It pushes you into a little mania. I once took an amphetamine diet pill and I felt like I was running around inside myself. I did more that day then I'd normally manage in a week. I didn't like the feeling and that was the first and last day I ever took it.
That's the weird thing. I always had this energy, I just lost in went I quite drinking over 2 years ago. and this medication has brought that back as well as being sociable. but, I think it is making me manic in talking and telling peole my life because I havent spoke to anybody in 2 years. today when I left the office, I was like this to myself, "why are you telling a stranger your whole life? so anyway I am going up another 10 mg tmorrow, I hope that works for focus because all I do is listen to music all day and bitch about what I have been doing for 2 years. i don't know why I am doing it. I think maybe I get stuck in that mood and though and that's where all my concentration is going but I cant seem to change it. thats why I am thinking about leaving this second job, deal with th elittle money I got and focus on myself.
but again, sometimes, I feel I can do all this stuff and I am being a wimp because I never bitch or complain like this and it's the medication.
and dont get me wrong, if I go off it, I'll just be sleeping all day and not talkign to people and losing focus. so I have to stay on a stimulant to be awake. one problem for another I guess?
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