I’m a first time mum. I went to my GP with mild anxiety (worry about my baby etc) but definitely not postpartum depression. He put me on 10 mg Lexapro a day (it’s my first antidepressant) and I've never felt so bad in my life having constant panic attack - both physical and mental symptoms, extremely depressed,Muscle spasms,can’t get out of my bed let alone look after my 3 months old. I've stopped the medication after 2 days it’s been 72 hours and I still feel horrible. I’m starting to feel hopeless like this is my life now and permanent damage was done to my brain! Can you please let me know if the symptoms will stop and when and will I ever feel myself again? I’m terrified. GP asked me to stop the medication and gave Valium which is helping but not a lot. The symptoms are always worse in the morning or when I wake up from a nap. I really need some hope to go through this hell. I want to feel like my old self again.