... if anyone has commented on them, but there hasn't been anything, not sure why but I sure could use some kind of support, I just came home out of the hospitol, they said i almost died because my blood pressure went way down, and you know with all the pain from the rsd getting worse spreading all over and nothing helps, I just think why wouldn't they just let me die? I feel like I have nothing left in me to keep going. I guess I just need a friend
Depression - I have posted questions and some thoughts I have a couple weeks ago I often look to see
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- 26 Jun 2012 by judipe
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- 30 Jun 2012
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- depression
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LaurieShay
26 Jun 2012
Dear judipe,
While I can't relate to rsd, I do understand depression and what it means to just want to give up. I'm sorry you have felt so alone. There are some great people here on this site that are very supportive. Wanting to end your life may seem like an answer, but not a choice for us to make. I have to remember my family and friends at times like this. Wanting to end my life is a selfish thought. When I put things in the correct perspective I realize that suicide is not an alternative.
Why did your blood pressure go so low? And what does your doctor say about the pain from the rsd? Are they treating it?
I'm here if you just want to talk. As God is my witness, I'm thankful my attempts at suicide were not successful and I encourage you to seek help through whatever means possible.
Laurie
DadsWatchinU
26 Jun 2012
My Dear Judipe... So very sorry my precious soul that you did not receive an answer to your original posting, this is not the norm on this site I can assure you. Not quite sure where it is posted but I will try to find it after I catch a few winks hon. In the mean time please believe that there are many many people on this site that care deeply about YOU, truly we have so many who work full time jobs, care for families & still dedicate numerous hours to helping others each & everyday because like myself, they feel the need to "pay it forward", because someone was here for us, here when we... like you are today, felt like there was no longer a reason to go on, we have been where you are dear & fought our way back, so please believe, have FAITH, lay all & I mean ALL, of your pain, worries, fears, at the feet of our Lord Jesus & allow him to carry your burden for just one day.
Patsrjh
26 Jun 2012
I just joined the group yesterday and I posted you as one of my friends. Although I have had depression off and on throughout my life, I didn't feel qualified to answer your questions about depression! But if you want to go with alcohol and drug addiction and where that can go, that I can help you on!
But in all sincerety, I hope you get some help from someone on here! You are to IMPORTANT TO TOSS AWAY! GOD BLESS YOU!! Your Friend Richard
kaismama
26 Jun 2012
Oh Judi, I know how you feel. Besides talking to us, if you have someone you can talk to, please do so. If you see your doctor and get him to help you out with the depression you will feel so much better. You would probably benefit from a therapist to talk to too. We're here for you.
SoMuchPain
26 Jun 2012
I am sorry, I have been in so much pain from the RSD that I do no get to be on here. I know how you feel, there is no cure, nothing helps with the pain (unless you get an infusion) & no one knows how it feels but people who have it. Mine is fullbody and it is effecting my organs. In the hospital they have no clue how we feel... The only thing that keeps me goin is the ketamine infusions, and I am still waiting for the new place to open. It is the only thing that will take away the pain. I get very sad and lonely to, I talk to a lsw, but nothing helps the fact that my friends and family have left me once I could no longer do what they wanted hurts! I just try a hide my feelings, but I tink everyday what have I done to get this? and why can't I just die? I have thought of way's, I thought off going to the country that give's you a death vacation. I have one person stoping me my husband. But if I get reall bad I say were goin.
balbanese
26 Jun 2012
Not sure why you didn't get responses, we are here for one reason, which is to help in any way we can. Letting you dieing is not an option, and I'm sure that's just your frustration talking. There is always hope, ALWAYS, and sometimes I know it's hard to believe, but it's true. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, sometime we just need to be reminded that it's there. Hope this helps and hang in there, we're here for you.
Billy
Anonymous
26 Jun 2012
Patiently Waiting
26 Jun 2012
I wanted to say I'm sorry I missed your post and I try to get on here at least once a day. Feel free to add me, I welcome the messages. Everyone has a purpose in life.. even if you don't feel or see it. I have been there. Please call your doctor and ask for help. I would highly recommend therapy because you should not be alone all the time. Therapy is not magic and cannot fix your pain or feelings but it does open the door to those terrible feelings you are holding in. Talk! We are not here to judge. Post and let us know what's going on.. and maybe you will feel a bit better. Please make you an appointment and ask your doctor for help.
auntof3sjb
26 Jun 2012
DadsWatchinU
26 Jun 2012
RSD: diffuse persistent pain usually in an extremity often associated with vasomotor disturbances, trophic changes, and limitation or immobility of joints; frequently follows some local injury. NOW... This is the "dictionary" explanation of the experience, but the people I've known w/this debilitating illness will describe it slightly different... TOTAL BODY PAIN W/O ANY RELIEF ! Pretty much what I've understood... apparently nothing really helps, pain meds no help etc., is why I gave her the response that I did, I hope & pray we can be of some support to this person. God Bless & Good Health... Mommanancy
outsidesue
26 Jun 2012
Anonymous
26 Jun 2012
Hello judipe, and again welcome to the site. I looked at your profile & you have asked several questions since April 12th, & you have received 34 answers. I don't know where you are looking but sevral of the people that have answered today also answered before. I can relate to your pain problems,& also my husband is bipolar with many many pain issues too. He too has thought of, & tried suicide, but thankfully was not succesful but not for the lack of trying so many times I can't remember how many. My point is that he always blamed his suicide attempts to the admitting doctor on his pain problems. The last time he almost died. I don't know what kept him alive, but he fianally got a psychiatrist that he got along with, & didn't believe him when he said it was due to his pain problems. This was about 10 years ago, & to this day he still sees the same psychiatirst for his meds & talk therapy.
endlessPred
27 Jun 2012
DadsWatchinU
30 Jun 2012
My precious endlesspred... Reading you comment I sit in my recliner alone in my living room, alone, with tears streaming down my face. What greater love can one have for their spouse & child (even a grown one) then to take care of all this in advance, to spare them the horrific & troubling issues of making these kind of decisions upon death of a loved one so close a a Mom, or Wife. So many people today worry only about themselves, their pain, their issues, not what effect it is having on their loved ones, let alone if they are terminal... what the family has to go thru after their death. If I had the opportunity I would love to just tell you in person (So I could hug you endlessly) how nice it is to actually hear someone be so unselfish & think of someone else instead of the "Me-Me-Me Syndrome which seems to have taken over our society in the last 25 years.
judipe
28 Jun 2012
DadsWatchinU
30 Jun 2012
You will get that a lot of times if you use Capital letters... such as: "I was SOOOO depressed"... in computer lingo, a lot of software is written to identify capital letters sometime as maybe being 1) Swear Words ) Negative Comments 3) Anything that may need to be monitored by the site. So dear friend in pain, be not alarmed, it is just the system itself, not an actual person, giving you that message,,, at times a real live person will go in to check to be sure that there is NO words or phrases that do not belong on a family friendly site. That said, this site does allow for us to pretty much say what we need to as long as you are not identifying how to make, distribute, or attain drugs in a unlawful manner or doing things of a illegal or for lack of a better work..vulgar nasty manner.
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