Hi everyone I'm new to the forum and I'm hoping to get some advice. I wont get into the tedious details of my background unless someone feels it would be helpful, so I'll just jump right in.
I have been trying to taper myself off suboxone for 3 months without success. I am an addict in the classic sense and I just do not have the ability to monitor myself successfully. I always give up and take my normal dose. I have been taking sub for a year. I am down to 2mg a day, and seemingly cannot get myself down from there. I am a busy executive, and to try and take a week off to just go cold-turkey would be disastrous... and I would likely lack the will to do it and just take more sub. I am deeply ashamed of this, I consider myself to be in recovery and am active in AA for the past 4 years. So here's the deal. I have heard anecdotal evidence that if one "switches" to another opiod for a period of 8-10 days, enough to stave off W/D, and then switch back to suboxone and use the rapid taper method employed by the hopsital detox clinics, one can totally avoid all but very mild W/D symptoms.... as opposed to just dealing with the moderate W/D of going cold turkey off of sub after being on it for a year....people say you can "reset" by taking for example 2-5mg of methadone for 10 days and then taking a Sub taper for 4 days will take you off completely and the WD's will not be severe at all.
Now, I hear widely varying tales about suboxone w/d.... some people claim to be violently sick for a month or even longer, which I cannot fathom since I have two close friends who went cold turkey at 8 - 10mg of sub and both experienced 8 days of pretty nasty wd and then perfectly fine. I do not personally know anyone who has done the "reset".
Can anyone comment on this? The hospital detox will not take me in... they say they use sub to detox everyone off everything else and cant take anyone addicted to sub because all they can do it give me more sub.
I feel totally hopeless and worst of all Its getting harder and harder to consider myself a "sober" person....
Any input will be greatly appreciated.