Hi all. I'm down to 1mg or less per day. I have been on the sub for 5+ years. My first dr wanted me to be in it forever where my dr bow has always supported my desire to quit it. My life is totally different than the way I was when popping pills. I haven't associated with any people have moved to two different states and haven't had a craving for opiates in all this time. I have been trying to get by with as little as possible. So even though I'm supposed to be steady at 1mg I've been getting by with .5 for two days then 1mg on day 3. Felt some serious anxiety and skin crawling and insomnia so had to get up at 3am and take a small sliver. I started panicking and called my dr today to see him and told him I can't afford to be dog sick until end of may or early June so he suggested I keep tapering to the smallest does and prescribed me catapres and trazodone for when I jump completely. I am terrified that all this work over the years will become undone and I'll just be that junkie girl again desperate for a pill. Is it normal to fear that old lifestyle? I do see a counselor but honestly he just enjoys my company at this point because he says I'm as healthy as I can be mentally and he said I don't need the therapy abt more unless a specific situation comes up like i have a craving or need advice on the mental stuff. So with all that said, I guess i am looking for some encouragement that my plan is feasible...that tapering as low as I can next 60 days then taking a week vacation and jumping with the help of catapres and trazodone is doable. I am so thankful for suboxone but as many of you understand there are things I want to do like start a family and get away from the stigma is sub'ers get. My dr had it out with cvs last month on my behalf (totally out of line behavior from a pharmacist) and it was kind of traumatic. Just need some support I think. Thanks. Love to u.