I'm at my wit's end. I worry all day, every day. I don't know how to be supportive. I don't know what to do anymore.
Every word that comes out of his mouth, I doubt. Every word.
What am I supposed to do? I don't know if we can recover from this. I don't know if I'm strong enough.
How can I trust him? He says he doesn't expect me to, and understands, but I don't know what to do. I feel like every word is full of deceit. Every word is said to make me doubt myself. I've been lied to for our entire life together. How does someone recover from that?
His problem has become mine. Now it's something that I have to deal with every day.
I am skeptical of everything he says. I don't know how much of it is in my head and how much of it is real. Am I blowing everything out of proportion because I feel so out of control? Or am I right?
I feel like my entire life is hanging by a thread. I feel even worse now than when I first found out.
I don't know why I'm even posting this. What I am looking for. Maybe I just needed to get it out, to tell someone. I have no one to talk to in real life about this.