I don't want to make this a long post because I hate typing on my tablet..
Basically my story is this: Addicted to hydro/perc (approximately 20 10mg, on the average day) for 8 months. Switched to suboxone and started at 32mg.. I know, crazy, right? Did subutex throughout my pregnancy.. Now I have tapered down to 1.75mg. I planned on tapering down to around .05 and then jumping, but the more I think about it, the more I just want to get it over with. My family and I are going on vacation August 17th and I want so desperately to be done and better by then. I have plenty of help for myself and my toddler.. I will be staying with my in-laws.
What I have in my head right now is this:
I know it won't be easy, but I have comfort med- clonodine, ativan, xanax.. Lots of vitamins and supplements. I just want to get this over with. If it is too intense, I can always go back and taper more, but I feel like I should at least give myself a chance to do this. I also think if my w/d were worse, it would deter me in the future from any more drug abuse.. Not that I ever plan on going back..... I have to give my little boy a better life than that.I
Anyone have any advice to offer?