Wow its 22 days Ive been clean you guys! It was a tough day today I didnt think about pills that much and today was really down on myself,depressed and unmotivated.Couldnt force myself to do anuthing Even the workout didnt help much The w/d are gone Im just feeling sad a lot and I know I need to engage in any kind of activities and I do but Im not sure I can do it on my own anymore.I worked out every day,joined joga classes,I eat very healthy and try to take care of my body.Today I had a very stressful day and I used to take pills to cope with stress so the urge was immense Also Ive been doing weight training and the pills helped me with the soreness and tiredness so today I was in a lot of pain in my shoulders and neck it was killing me.But Im glad I didnt give in to my weekness Especially cause my dealer contacted me He was probably wondering what happened to me 3 weeks went by.That didnt happen in a while.
So I told him Im done with that stuff. Someone mentioned here about cognitive therapy so I have this amazing book that actually was a reason I quit the first time.so I kept reading and reading posts here and forced myself to get moving and I think Im ok now.Tomorrow I want to check out N/A and A/A meetings MY question is how do I get started with a counselor or private therapy? Is that expensive? I dont have insuarance now I will have it next month but I do not really want to go through that cause its really hard to get it on your own with my health history as it is .I dont want to have an addiction on my re