day 1 of my detox..
i woke up today feeling great. i knew in my mind that today is a new start and i get clean. i had a great day at work i was happy all day..was productive all day, was talkative with everyone, outgoing. i havent felt like that in a VERY long time..even way before i started using roxys..it was awesome..
i knew all day i am getting clean and i didnt want to use. around 5-7 i started craving a little and it was around that time of day when i usually start getting eager to get home and use. i took my first dose of suboxone at 8pm. 16 hours after my last dose of oxycodone. i cut about a 4th of the 8mg tab. the cravings went right away and i had no desire to buy. i had a great rest of my night at work. i got home and it was weird..cause when i come home i drop my bag sit down and do a line. that was my routine..it was strange sitting down and not doing that..i craved a little so i cut a little more then a 4th of the tab and put that under my tongue as well like i was told to..this was at 11:53 pm.
i then talked to some friends and sketched a little felt totally fine, watched some trailer park boys then i ate some food. i also took some vitamins before i ate..about an hour went by and i started nodding out and feeling high..i thought i was tired so iwent outside to smoke a cigarette and realized im def high..i have been told that subs will get some people high and that is what some people use instead of roxy..its whatever, i will jus use less tomorrow..i still am not craving roxy..but will i be ok? im just a little nervous right now..i am feeling very slightly nauseous..
anyone up? please..id just like somebody to talk to right now..