I've dealt with anxiety ever since i was a youngster around the age of 10. That's around the time my parents divorced. But it wasn't just a quick divorce. There was an extraneous amount of drama that I, a 10 year old little girl, had to be in the middle of. I did get prescribed medication for depression around the age of 11. But I'm being honest. That medication did not work. I wanted nothing more but to sleep and i gained weight even tho i would loose my appetite. I didn't bother to go to the doctor for any more medication. However, just recently my brother passed away. I'm 17 years old now. It's been a very hard time for both me and my family. I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital a month after his passing. They prescribed me prozac to help cope with the depression but all that did was increase my anxiety levels even more than they already had. When I went back to school, I had the hardest time concentrating, still do in fact. I even have to reread just about everything and I was the type to read book after book with no problem. Now i cant even read one page without understanding what i just read. I refuse to believe that I'm dealing with "depression" because I keep myself occupied. I hang out with friends, I go for runs, I do things that make me happy. But when I'm sitting down, alone and bored, my mind wanders, and I think too much that it hurts. I have taken about .25mg/.50mg of xanax just to see if it works. In fact it did. But I Need to know as much information as I can about it before I go to the doctors. I dont want to deal with any medication that would give me the same effects. I want something that works and is safe to use with the right dosage.