I am a 36 year old addict. I recently started a cold turkey kick 4 days ago. I was using 2-5 grams of heroin a day in addition to an eight ball of cocaine a day. I was mainlining both. I tried knocking myself out with valium and xanax. I slept for about 20 hours only to wake up in complete agony. I held out for about 52 hours before I shot a small amount of H. It did help but I'm worried that I set myself back to hour one. Will it ever end? The crazy thing is is that I'm craving cocaine more. Is that normal? I know if I do coke I'm gonna need H to come down. Am I hopeless?