This seems to have been my biggest question.
I think, maybe, I am taking on too much at one time.
1) weaning off cigarettes
2) weaning off my valium
3) using suboxone instead of my drug(s) of choice
Most of you here at the suboxone support group know about me.
I have been stable on 18mg.
I went to my doctor as happy as a duck in water I felt my cravings, for the most part had subsided and I didn't relapse this past week.
SO, why, now, do I feel an uncontrollable urge/desire to use. Call it a craving or not.
One of the effects of being on this dose 18mg. was not only did my cravings all but subside, I also had moments of greater energy than usual. Not the 'high' from using opiates-now where near as intense.
Also, I look forward to taking my subs each day. I LOOK FORWARD TO IT!!!
Is that nuts?
Could I be in trouble?
What can I do to keep myself safe.
I have no way of getting anything-just to let that be known.
I almost feel like I am going backward into my obsessive state I felt I was in a couple of weeks back.
HAS anyone else experienced or is experiencing this?
What, if anything is wrong with me. I feel I 'should' be more evolved in the suboxone treatment process by now.
Maybe this is just a fleeting feeling. Perhaps I've hit the panic button a bit too soon.
Just needing some moral/experiential support right about now.
Think I'll look around to see if I can be of any moral support to anyone else here on this forum site, here.
thanks for ...