im 23 been on methadome a yr. My bby was born addicted to it. Now she is clean. But she was born wit big hole in her heart.. N needs open heart surgery. She only 4 months. . This is all my fault. Im si depressed she was so inoccent and i did this. I have so much guilt. Thats why i need to get off this methadome and live maintence n drug free i owe it to her...
I am really sorry about your baby ... I know how hard it can be. Unfortunately you can not change the past but can make changes for a better future. If you are feeling depressed I would suggest that you see a doctor and seek help. This will make you and your baby's life much better.
All the best.
you did what you did and maybe I am wrong but sometimes you don't have the choices I think what you have to do is try to get the help you need and find a doctor that can help you with the depression, blame won't change a thing you are trying to care for her now (as long as you were taking the medication because you needed it then you did the best you could ) otherwise moving on and getting better is what your baby needs I have a good friend who has a baby with 2 holes in it's heart and it's had 3 surgeries she wasn't on medications, focus and fight to get over this get the help you need I know that from every writing on here that people are here to help one another and that includes helping you help yourself I hope I have been a source of some help life can be so difficult but I believe with time and help things will get better for you
Marvell is right. You can not change what has happened. That is very sad about your daughter. Yes, she is very innocent and must endure surgery. You need to focus on getting clean and staying clean. This is a must for your daughters sake. You need to come up with a plan. It's not going to be easy but you can be successful. Maybe you could give some details about your addiction? Is it maintenance at a clinic? Take home? How many mg's daily? There are safe taper plans for methadone. But with over 2 decades of use, you may need suboxone for a while. It will depend on many factors. Are you near a bigger city where N/A is available? You need lots of help and counseling for this to work. Please try to be strong. Work on making the future a much brighter place. You could start by doing a search for methadone addiction online. There's many informative sites to visit and find an addiction specialist to guide you through this.
Hi, I am very sorry to hear about your baby. I had both my children on methadone. The chances that methadone caused the hole in her heart is very slim, almost impossible. Stop blaming yourself, if you carry that guilt around, your chances of sucessfull recovery are not good. My daughter turned 26 on the 5th and my son is 25 years old today! That are healthy and incredibly bright. I won't pass my opinion onto you, I stayed on methadone for almost two years after. Getting off methadone is a long haul, and meetings are a must! I stayed off for some time and then started using again. I am now much older and wiser, but back on methadone for chronic pain. God Bless you. Fall Queen
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