... being just a wimp and it not being a real addiction so I think thats what keeps me away from meetings its like peoople saying hi I am addicted to crack and me saying hi I am addicted to provigil people would probably think oh big deal or thats how I see it. Although my family knows they think its no biggie and my sister out right said I was liar looking for attention because if I was taking as many pills as I said I was I would be dead so I was just attention seeking which broke my heart. I just don't know where I fit in with addiction to medication... am I an addict ... if so is such a big deal seeing as its only provigil... i don't know... any advice would be greatly appreciated