... being just a wimp and it not being a real addiction so I think thats what keeps me away from meetings its like peoople saying hi I am addicted to crack and me saying hi I am addicted to provigil people would probably think oh big deal or thats how I see it. Although my family knows they think its no biggie and my sister out right said I was liar looking for attention because if I was taking as many pills as I said I was I would be dead so I was just attention seeking which broke my heart. I just don't know where I fit in with addiction to medication... am I an addict ... if so is such a big deal seeing as its only provigil... i don't know... any advice would be greatly appreciated
Guess you already know what my opinion is but as I have shared, Provigil can be abused for its psychoactive and euphoric effect. There is a reason to be concerned. What your family thinks while significant is based on ignorance. They do not understand the abusive nature of this medication. It is a controlled substance (that is why you have to show your drivers license when you pick it up at the pharmacy) and that is the reason why it is, because of the abuse potential.
Don't let your mind play tricks on you. Minimizing the problem is addictive behavior. You will learn about such things when you go to addiction's counseling whether in a NA meeting or professionally. As addicts we tend to brush off the significance of our issues, as it is no biggie, but I'm here to tell that it IS.
I agree with what Laurie said,
you need to admit to yourself you have a problem and get into going to meetings and the like,you're already thinking you have a problem,otherwise you would'nt be questioning your actions or the amount you are taking.
YOU know its too much to be taking so despite what your family think or say,go with your real thoughts and seek councelling near you and where to attend meetings.Get the help you need,best of luck with it.
Keep us posted as to how you're doing.
I was not familar with this med so looked it up. It says it's used for wakefullness, & other uses. Addicts should not take this medicine. Now whether your an addict or not who can tell? What & why are you on this mediocine for & how long. It seems you are a slight bit frantic, & I wonder if that is the medicine speaking for you. More answers would be of help. ...
Hello jennylynn, welcome to the site, depression is a horrible condition. I would like to preface my response here by stating I in no way wish to be nosy, judgmental, or offensive, just wanted to ask a couple of questions that might clarify things or add needed info, if you don't mind. If any of them bother you in any way, please don't answer them. Did your doctor try you on any of the ssnri's, such as ability, pristiq, or effexor? These med treat two chemicals in the brain, serotonin and norpenephrine,.norpenephrine helps control energy levels.
Did you ever get diagnosed with add or adhd? Have you had any traumatic events or major losses that may have triggered/amplified the depression? I also wanted to tell you I have an older sister who is a former ER nurse, and she has no sympathy at all for any either my younger sister or me, she appears to the public to be a good Christian catholic and so caring of others, but has said and done hateful, vicious things to us, talked about us like we were derelict selfish criminals and interfered in our marriages, divorces, and is manipulative and controlling. Your sister sounds much like mine in her attitude. And actions. She may be too toxic for you to be around or for you to confide in. In my situation, group and individual therapy helped alot, I prefer group, it is nice to have a support group of my peers as opposed to a jury of them, or a mean miserable judge of a sister. One more question, is your mom deceased and is she an older sister or the oldest in the family? You will find much support here, welcome. Pattishan
Addiction is a disease - and the choice of substance has very little to do with whether or not we're addicts. For some, they want to feel more "up" - for others, they want to feel more "mellow" - it doesn't matter. The concept of addiction is that a person is seeking a substance to escape what they are feeling - and that substance becomes a mental pre-occupation. You have a home in NA, I assure you. ;) Once a person gets into recovery, they come to realize that the substance abused is only a "symptom" of the underlying issues that need to be resolved. Anyone who is being a stickler about exactly what substance you abused has not quite caught on to the fuller picture of "addiction."
This disease is tremendously powerful, and alters every aspect of our lives. I hope you come to see that it is NOT that you are a "wimp" at all. Addiction is a genetic disorder; it's wired within your DNA to begin with, although you didn't know that, starting out. We beat ourselves up that we didn't have more willpower - or that we were weak people - but, as we get to know more about the disease, we come to learn that willpower and moral character have nothing to do with addiction.
You have already admit to an addiction to ritalin. Most folks, even those with a limited perception of addiction, do know that ritalin is an addictive drug. Once we have 'tripped the trigger' of our disease (as you did with ritalin), we can not use ANY addictive substance in safety. This is why you developed an addiction to provigil; basically, your disease had already been activated. Once we are an addict, we are always an addict.
By the way, provigil is not a simple antidepressant, which is why you've become addicted to it. It is prescribed to promote "wakefulness" - which would certainly be a huge trigger for someone who has already become addicted to a drug like ritalin. So when others who are unfamiliar with provigil question why you're addicted to an anti-depressant, they are assuming that this is a "traditional" antidepressant, which produces no "up" or "high." That is not the case.
If you want to avoid the questions and raised eyebrows, just say your drug(s) of choice were "uppers" or "amphetamines" - and leave it at that. You don't need to explain yourself!
You said you're taking a lot of Provigil. Can I ask you how much you take and is it every day that you take Provigil? I'm wondering why you consider yourself addicted to it? Can you explain please?
I also take Provigil and I've been doing so since 2004. I don't take it every day, although lately I have been taking 100 mg in the morning to help me stay awake. In all the years I have been taking it I never once felt a speedy effect from it. I have also never felt that it is addictive in any way. I have never had any withdrawal from not taking it. So can you please explain why you say you're addicted to it?
I know this is an old post, and you never responded to me from last time, but I have some new things to say concerning Provigil. As far as Provigil being a problem goes, I once and only once, heard someone say he was taking 800 mg a day. I think it's obvious he wasn't getting it from a doctor. I'd also say that yes, 800 mg a day is abuse and it may seem addicting at that dose.
However, the only problem I have with Provigil is my current MD doesn't like it. He knows next to nothing about it. I'm probably his only patient taking it. He read something bad about it, and he called it an amphetamine. That is soooo wrong. I happen to be as familiar with amphetamines as you can be. No one can know amphetamines better than me. Provigil is not an amphetamine. Far from them. Steroids are more like amphetamines than Provigil is.
For the past few months I have been taking Provigil almost everyday. But to do that I can only take 200 mg a day. There are several days a month that I need 400 mg a day, and usually for 2 days in a row. But my insurance only covers 200 mg a day. So I ran out early this month. With all this talk of Provigil being addictive I became nervous thinking I was going to have withdrawal symptoms (wds) from no Provigil. But guess what? There are no wds without Provigil. And I had to just stop, Cold Turkey as it's called. There are no wds, which means Provigil is not addictive. However, I have been experiencing a return of the symptoms I take Provigil to get rid of. That means excessive daytime drowsiness, and laziness. Also a lack of energy and motivation. That may be coming from depression, as those are signs and symptoms of depression. I also take Buprenorphine everyday for pain, and the Bupe also helps fight depression. So I don't feel extra depressed without Provigil. But I do feel like sleeping all the time and not doing anything. But I can't sleep all the time. I can't even stay asleep for 3 hours without waking up. I never get the proper rest. This is why I take Provigil. Without even 100 mg of Provigil, just walking out the door and going to a local store seems like a lot to do, and it isn't. But that has been the only thing that has happened without Provigil. Excessive sleepiness. I can't say this is a wds, because this is why I take Provigil in the 1st place.
To compensate for this I have been taking Wellbutrin and drinking energy drinks more often. I am looking forward to getting my next script of Provigil, but not because it makes me feel good. I want them so I don't have to feel sleepy all day. Maybe then I can get some things done again. I haven't been able to accomplish anything since the Provigil ran out.
I have been addicted to amphetamines in the long ago past, of my life. I know what amphetamine addiction is all about. Trust me on that. Provigil is not an amphetamine, and it is certainly not addictive. No withdrawal symptoms means the drug is not addictive.
- Provigil Information for Consumers
- Provigil Information for Healthcare Professionals (includes dosage details)
- Side Effects of Provigil (detailed)
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