Waiting on the doctor to call me back and hopeing to get into see him on weds his only day at the?

I already have chronic pain in my back and hip and have a really hard time with degerative disc diease and sciatic pain then i had the accident.Thats all i needed lol.To say the least it was a horrific ordeal.But i know i am mending but when your in pain sometimes its hard to see past the pain.I know all you pain suffers know what i mean.Its like pain pain pain on the brain 24/7 sometimes you feel like your going outta your mind from pain.I have to choose to believe all will be better soon.Thank You all for your understanding and kind words.Actually i take alot of medicine.I hate medicine to be honest with you.I despise pills.I dont understand why people want them to get high i really dont.But they do.I personally know ppl who do and i dont even tell them i get pain meds or they would steal or beg for them sad isnt it.I had a really huge problem accepting being limited.I always could do what i wanted to do and was very active when one day my life was put to a halt and i could no longer do even the simplist things i had always been able to do.But i have no accepted it.I dont like it i despise being the way i am.But all i can do is go to the doctor and pray he helps me get as normal as possible.I love you guys thanks so much for the wonderful support you have given me.
May God Bless You
Sharon

You hit the nail on the head and i am so guilty of when i do feel good overdoing it like you said trying to play catchup.Its hard as you already know sitting day after day seeing things that need to get done and then when you have a good day try to conquer it all.I am so guilty.My Doctors office finally called this morning.I go in the 13th to reevaluate my pain medicines.See they put me on morphine after years and years of suffering and i got to where i couldnt walk and had to use a wheelchair.I was in so much pain i actually just felt like i wanted to die.I was so tired of the pain.But i dont like pain meds ecspecialy narcotic ones.I tryed non narcotic ones and they didnt work.My Husband is always a big help to me but he fell recently and broke his ribs so he cannot do anything hardly right now.He told my son that if he brought the baby over he would have to do most of the work that he couldnt help me at all and that i was not able to do it all.I do have her today while he is working.I turn on ELMO and she sits and watches it and plays for hours.I have the gates up where she can only stay in the living room.But as you know a 20 month old is work.I have tryed to baby proof as much as possible but she always seems to find something to get she shouldnt have lol.
Lifting her is my biggest problem.If you knew the whole situation with her you would know why i would suffer to have her here.She is safe her at my house and not at her own and not taken care of.She is a innocent victom of addiction and carelessness.
May your day be blessed
Sharon