Ok lets start from the begining. Ive been addicted to pain killers for the past 2 years mostly hyros and percs but the last 3 months its been oxys. I was doing 200mg a day just to feel normal.I had decided to stop after confiding in a close and powerful friend meaning if i touch another i will be in big trouble. So sunday i did by last ocs and monday it was. I did ok through the day until the night then it was fetal positon sweating and the normal i was prepared for. A friend came over and brought me a crumb of suboxone to help so i tool that... then my"friend" came over to sit with me to help mw through well she brought 2 valium i know not to mix the 2 but it was a small dose and i couldnt tell me friend i had taken that she has no idea about addiction and wouldnhave freaked so i took the valium. Felt fine slept great. Day 2 felt great im guessing the sub... Day 3 felt ok got some subutex to help did a little of that..night 3 gave in to oxy i know i know. Day 4 felt fine by about 5 felt bad took 3 ultram then half a xanax. So where am i now? Am i starting all over have i ever been clean im so scared so confused im very young and dont want to go down that road i have 2 small childern i dont want to loose very few ppl know due to my master lying skills and baribe doll face lol perople forget addiction has no face thought. Please help me find my way!!!
Why did you start taking the pain medication (I have back injuries... that is how I started)? I too am young. I was taking around the same you were. Last weekend I started on Suboxone by seeing a specialists. I am also seeing a therapist twice a week and he knows everything.
Do you have health insurance? Could you look for a Suboxone doctor in your area?
There are people on here who have cut the pain meds cold turkey. I know it is not easy and can be dangerous. And you are correct, mixing benzos and suboxone is not the safest.
What are your options? Rehab? Suboxone?Cold Turkey? It is true you must take it one day at a time but you must also gain the tools to get better. Reach out for professional support if you can.
If you go to the Suboxone website you can search for doctors in your area. Maybe you can call around and see when you can get in. Hang in there and know that if you really want it you can get better!!! One day at a time :)
Don't beat yourself up over your slip. Is it possible for you to contact your state or county to see if there are Sub programs offered at low or no cost?
Also, please let us know what symptoms of WD you are suffering with right now. I feel for you. Been there.
Your children will have their Mother back soon. You must think of yourself first at this time.
okay first off I too battled a pain pill addiction problem.
now first off you cant just take suboxone and then stop you need to keep taking it and it will help a lot so like sweetlemon said contact your state or county and see if you can see a sub doctor dont be ashamed they understand and so do we and they will help so just some quick helpers for now though..the valium will help with sleep but with the suboxone it is a opiate and then it also has a drug in it that stops other opiates from work so if you take suboxone and then take oxy the oxy wont work very well and you shouldnt be mixing those together once you get past day 7 or 8 you will be free just stick it out and we will be here for you all the way get rid of your contacts where you get the drugs google the thomas recipe its a list of over the counter meds that help with withdrawal and his personal account of the hell he went through it will help..some of stuff on the tomas recipe is valium which will help with your insomia,anxiety,muscle spasms then get immodium ad for the runs and take advil or excederin for the pain I would see if you can get a script of 800 mg IB profen for the pain it would work better also get some b vitamins to help deal with the energy problem and depression and if you take ginger it will stop you from getting sick to your stomach also you can take l-tyrosine which turns in to dopamine in your brain the same thing that the pain pills take the l-tyrosine in the morning on an empty stomach with the b vitamins which will make you feel wired lol like WOOOHOOO lol but do not take the l-tyrosine within 2 hours of eating protein it can cause stomach bleeding. Now if you can get a hold of L-dopa instead of L-tyrosine it will work better because L-tyrosine turns in to L-dopa then that turns in to dopamine so if you can get a hold of the l-dopa it will work faster also get on here as much as you can and talk with us we will help you..you should take magnesium with malic acid and potassium pills which will take away muscle pain and you can get umasom original for sleep aid. it works great 1 unasom has the same amount of sleep aid as 4 doses of nyquil hope this has helped takecare and Godbless
It does sound like you've been jumping from one med to another out of desperation. I understand the feeling of wanting to avoid the wd's. Sweetlemon kicked prescribed Oxy cold turkey and knows what withdrawal hell truly is. But really subs aren't substituting one addiction for another. The goal of Subs is to keep you from craving opiates and feeling the horrible wd's. It is not for long term use. Once you find a comfort level, you slowly begin to taper down until you are back to your old self again. You have to be strong and get counseling too. The chances of relapse are very high among people who don't follow up with counseling. N/A is a great start. My daughter is a sponsor for some N/A members and has been clean herself for quite a while. Please don't jump from trams to subs to oxy, it's only prolonging the inevitable. If you have enough medication, try to do a slow taper. That is the most comfortable way to kick addiction.
But unless you begin a sub program, it's nearly impossible to feel back to normal within a few days. Soulreaper gave you some excellent advice. Please come back as often as you can for support. It really does help many people. You are never alone in this battle. Someone is always here to help you stay strong and cope. But please try and be strong. Try and get the items listed on the Thomas Recipe and also the supplements? soulreaper mentioned. Take care and try to get out, breathe some fresh air, walk, get those endorphines kicked in to high gear. Drink tons of water too. It's vital you stay hydrated and the more you urinate, the faster the meds will be out of your system too!
Best wishes for a quick recovery,
hrosep, I too wonder what is the cause of your pain, and was a Dr. prescribing these drugs for you the past several years or were you getting them off the street.
The amount of oxy you were taking sounds like a very large dose. Your decision to want to come off this drug is very brave and made for excellent reasons so you will succeed. I don't think I'd listen a whole lot to my "powerful" friend and my reasons for saying this are 1) It's not realistic to expect you to simply quit taking oxy without a Dr.s support and 2) Her bringing you valium was a very bad idea.
It can cause some very dangerous reactions that would require ER treatment.
Did you say you had also taken ativan... same thing, avoid that as well.
Who gave you the subuxone? The Dr.? If so, you would be very wise to follow those directions exactly. Remember not to chew or swallow it, but to let it dissolve under your tongue. The reason is that your body can't utilize it as well if you swallow it.
You mention that you have to go back to work tomorrow. Are you working with a Dr. to get off oxy? If so, make an appointment with him asap, and continue taking the oxy, but at a much decreased dose until you've been seen. Try to be as honest as you can with him/her. The Dr. knows about the actions of all these drugs. For instance, suboxone is intended to take up the space in your brain that normally would be used by oxy if you were taking it And your question about mixing all the different drugs is correct, it's a dangerous mix that may make you feel a bit better for a little while but overall is doing harm
Do you have a serious condtion that caused the Dr. to prescribe these meds for you? Are you sure you SHOULD stop taking them. Granted, the dose of oxy you're using is way too much, and must be lowered.
All the things that are going on with you need to be handled by a Dr. I'm not going to scare you into saying all the things that could go wrong, but believe me you need a Dr. right away.
Is rehab out of the question for you? Even if you don't have insurance, do you have state covered insurance? Chances are good that they would pay for your stay in a rehab facility. And truly, that is what you need.
Self-prescribing, and self-administering narcotics is an extremely dangerous thing to do. My son died that way. He was 32.
With 3 kids that need you, you owe it to yourself and to them to get the right treatment. Please do that. This can and will work out if your really want it to.
Hope all this has helped...
OK here's what I sugjest fist off all ,you have to be, the one that wants to stop,you have to realize what is instake,if your in some kind of pain back,nack, nearvs,and so forth u might nead something to healp you function,but if your doing it just to get hi than thats the wors reason to toke any tipe of drugs,what you have to do is go back to where you had never dun anything and think hawe happy ,and have mutch fun life was,without any drugs ,becous I shore remembar,but in my case I have no chose eather take something to function or laye doun all day.Oh have I wish that I had no pinche nerves discks capper tonell bouth arms,bone spurs and other pains,if I didint have all this pains I'd go to a dtox and never tuch it again becous life can bee verry butifle.So if you have no pain get healp and stop but you have to maket a priorety to stop you have to do that not your frands.Take care and good luck.JOHN
Well how did it all start?A prescription you had and abused?Or just plain old addiction?But your best bet is to talk to a doctor about your situation and more than likely you will end up on suboxone.I wouldn't do that but that is just me and I've never been straight-Full blown addicted to a substance before though.
Dear hrosep, I wish I could come get you and bring you home with me and take care of you while you go through this... I know this may sound strange to you, but I cried when I read what you wrote. You see, my very young niece is going through the same thing. She lives in Flordia and I live in West Virginia and she has lost her children because of Oxycodone. She gave her third child up for adoption, because she didn't belong to her husband. Then the very next year, the state came in and took her little boy and little girl! They are in foster care now, and even though the state told her what she had to do to get them back, she won't do it, because the drugs are more important to her right now. Our family has tried to get the state of Flordia to let the children come to West Virginia where all the rest of the family is, so we can take care of them and they won't be with strangers, but the state won't let them leave.
My niece went to Flordia because it's easier to get Oxycodone there, and she met a guy who was also into drugs. Someone down there reported her for not taking care of her children and now she is not going to get them back. Honey, please don't let this happen to you... everytime you feel like back sliding, just look into those little eyes that need you and it will give you the strength to do what you need to do. Please don't think I'm preaching to you, I know it's hard, especially if you are doing it alone. Try the Thomas Recipe on the internet, it will help with the withdrawals, and drink tons of water, Propel Blueberry is great, it will help flush your system out a lot faster. If you're taking the pills because you are depressed, try to find a counsler to talk to. If you don't have insurance, sometimes you can go to the local clinic, and they can help you get free counseling. Believe me, I know life is hard and it's almost impossible to not get depressed when you are alone and raising children, but I know from experience, you will be much happier once you have fought this demon and won. You will be very proud of yourself and if you can get someone to talk to it will help even more. Please feel free to make me your friend and I will be happy to talk to you when ever you want... I will try to help you as much as I can... Good Luck honey!
soboxone is what u need ... its to get people off pain meds... it helps with the withdrawls and its a non narcotic pill... i know alot of people that were addicted to pain meds and goin thru withdrawl and subboxone helps them thru it... so i would try to get that... they really do help...
Ithink you have answered your self you have to small lifes that love you a lot ,Ilost my mom two yrs ago ,she rotted away from cancer ,she was hooked on derviset and had gone to rehab and cleaned up ,a yr later had cancer and suffered with it for 10 yrs ,don't think she was a loser .she was very intelagent.a libaryan for over 25 yrs ,your rite addiction has no face ,take this day bye day ,and if u have to start over ,smoke m.m.w this is asome .Ican fell your a wonderful mom ,here is a hug for u ,,o
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