I have been taking tramadol for almost 20 years now for severe back pain. Injured my back while deployed in the military. I’m 53 now and can’t stand dealing with this medication. The anxiety of getting refills, running out and of course the worry. I want to end this and get off it but it seems nearly impossible. Tapering seems to be most people’s answer and I’m good with that. However, this is not easy and my dr isn’t flexible at all. If I were to relapse, and say fall short by a few days to my refill, it’s too bad. The withdrawals for me are God awful as you can imagine. I have heard that stopping suddenly can even have the risks of heart attack or even stroke. I am so scared and want help. Where do I turn? The VA is even worse