Lately, I have been thinking how 'easy' it would be if I took a vacation from my suboxone program to use again.

I am not making plans to, nor do I really want to use.
I just wanted to share some of these crazy thoughts swirling around inside my head, lately.

I want to share it here because if i don't I feel I will start to justify why I could do that. I don't pretend because I am on Suboxone and not living a 'using life' I am any less an addict, with the thought process which comes with it.

I do not want to use. I want to put that out there. OR maybe subconsciously I do? I feel it is important to talk about this here before the $hit really hits the fan.
That's it. all replies are welcome!!!

thank you people!