I just told my husband that I was talking to some people on here and he says to stay off the internet. He says that I could be talking to serial killers that I do not know who I'm talking to. He is a very private person and very strong in his beliefs. If I was to tell him that I gave in to the subutex he might go crazy. I'm shaking and scared and I just don't know what I'm going to do. So far, none of the doctors could help me. The one I'm seeing now is saying I'm on such a low dose and not to worry about it or ween slowly. I just can't do it. I wonder if there are people who killed themselves because they lost hope? There just is not enough good help out there and maybe this doctor Jeffrey in Fondulac Wi. may be able to help me but I'm not ready to go through that suffering again. I'm suffering now but I remember without the subutex how unbearable it was. It's indescribable. I'm going to watch his youtube videos again and go to his web page. All my husband does is blame me for not listening to him and listening to the doctor when he put me on this stuff. My husband does not believe in medicine. Yes, he was right but how was I to know? I was told it is not addicting and easy to come off of and that I could stay on it the rest of my life. I can not live like this for the rest of my life. Laura