I've been seeing a counselor trying to get help with anxiety and depression. It has come to the point where I can't go to work or to my appointments because of the anxiety. I do not know what to do. I may have seasonal depression. I have info on who to contact to get tested but when I call I hang up. I can't breath sometimes and the depression is so bad that I am worried about my safety. What do I do? I don't think my counselor understands what I'm trying to say and I've seen him four or five times now. I do have some information on getting tested for this depression but I do not have insurance and when I call my anxiety causes me to hang up. Am I supposed to be the one to set up this testing? Can they set it up? I am having the hardest time making myself do this and I know that I am self destructing. Any help provided would be much appreciated. I don't understand why this is so hard for me but it is.