... so I ate one of my father-in-law's hydromorphone 30mg last night because I'm the owner of two destroyed knees and the pain is unbearable to the point of making me suicidal. to top it off I'm suffering from depression. Im 6'4" 225 pounds and otherwise healthy. How much hydromorphone would be mortal to me?
So I'm 40 married and have twin 4 year old boys and a 4 month old daughter. I ran out of naproxen?
Added 31 Jan 2011:
Im not looking for sympathy just the easiest way out, and a way that is the least messy to my wife.
Added 2 Feb 2011:
Sounds more melodramatic each time I read it. But it don sound wrong.
Added 3 Feb 2011:
I view this as a terminal illness more than anything else..one which also affects the wellbeing of my family.
Please reconsider, your wife and other loved ones will always blame themselves as well as miss you terribly. Please let your doctor know the pain is this bad. Pain causes depression and then depression causes worse pain, it is an evil circle. If you are not having luck with your doctor helping you, find another one. Please stay with us. Pattishan
There are medications to fix that pain and the depression!!! Please go to your nearest ER and talk to a doc about how you feel.
Think of your children growing up without their father, think of your wife!
People love you, they will be devastated if you do this to yourself and them.
Please please go to hospital NOW!!!
Taking someone elses meds is not a good option. Hydromorphone is a strong painkiller and 30mg is a very high dose so don't take anymore. You have too much to live for and there is help out there.
Can you get the naproxen refilled? Please get to a doctor and get help for your pain and suicidal thoughts.
We care here and are available to talk, please keep in touch,
Hey Det: Stop for a moment thinking about yourself. Being in chronic pain causes depression, this is a fact. Do you have a doctor? Do you have a pain doctor? Think about your wife, and especially your children. Do you know how difficult it is for four year olds to grow up without a father role model? Is that what you really want them to do? You expect your wife to find you, but what if it is one of your children? Do you have any idea what that will do to them for the rest of their lives?? Since you are healthy, there are many options for you. But for this to happen, you MUST see a doctor and tell them what you are FEELING! Go with your wife. I know that men feel like weaklings if they admit that they are not perfect. What does killing yourself say about you, and all the gossip around your poor wife and kids? You are NOT a weakling.
The fact that your wrote to this group means that you are reaching out for help. Although we can be supports for you, we cannot prescribe the medication that is needed to help you. Only a doctor can do that. Call a 24 hour helpline. They can direct you to a doctor who understands all the pressure you are under. I can't tell you enough that this is NOT your fault. Depression is a chemical reaction in your brain. It is not weakness. There was a study done on people who committed suicide, vs. people who died from natural deaths. Everyone of the people who committed suicide did not have enough seratonin, (or some chemical) in their brain associated with depression, while the people who died from natural causes had plenty. Do you see a connection? If you want to write privately, please write to someone, me, anyone you feel comfortable with. Please don't do anything rash before you see a doctor. We do care. Ellen
Patti is right, I have suffered from pain caused from after effects of polio, a couple weeks ago did 4 fractures in my back, It is not acceptable for you to suffer with this amount of pain, the doctor should know what you are having to cope with and also if he is not able to make things more comfortable for you then you should look (and you will find a doctor out there that will help you) once you get this vicious cycle under control things will seem much different than they do right now so please please reconsider your options, I have had pain severe enough to wonder if it was really worth keep on fighting but life is so very prescious, I even went as far as to have to have hospice, once the pain was managed then my view on life in general was totally different.
Please take good care of yourself in doing so you will allow those that love and care for you to be normal and able to go on, one never ever knows what life can go on for loved ones that are left behind, just a thought, just say that you wife was having the same sorts of problems how would you cope if she were to no longer live, to decide to commit suicide, I am not trying to make you feel worse than already do I just want you to think about this from every angle, hang on things will improve all you have to do is allow someone out there (the doctors) to know how bad things are and just give it a try, I wish you the very best and I do care about
You need to stop and reconsider. There is no way out for you that will not DESTROY your wife and children!! Not only will it be messy for your family it will be catastrophic!! You dont want to do that to your precious babies!! And also think of your father who will carry guilt to his grave and beyond that HE was the one who had the medicine that you killed yourself with. I had two cousins who commited suicide and our whole family has never been the same! They totally destroyed the lives around them too! Get some help NOW!!! Have you discussed this pain with your Drs? Have you told them how you feel in that the pain is so bad you are contemplating ending it all? There is ABSOLUTELY no reason for you to hurt this badly. There are medications and therapies that can help. PLEASE, PLEASE reach out to someone and get yourself help. Tell your wife you feel this way-someone! You have WAY, WAY too much to live for.
You have a wife who loves you and beautiful children who need their Daddy! You have an awful lot of good advice here and we care too! Please write back and let us all know if you have talked to someone about this and reached out for help. Call 911 or the operator to connect you with someone to help you! Talk to a clergy member or whoever you feel comfortable with!
I don't believe there is "a easiest way out". Everyone whose posted here has said it all perfectly already. We are all very worried about you. Can you please post something to let us know how you are? Do you have a plan? If so, you must contact someone you trust right away and tell them you plan to kill yourself and what the plan is. There are suicide hotlines in all the big cities, if you don't want to leave your home. You reached out to us once, can you do it again? Let us know what's going on, please, cathleen
Never make descisions about your life when you are depressed. I went through a major depression in 2007. The meds I was on gave me a psychoatic episode. I got admitted to the hospital on my 45 birthday for 6 months before the doctors found the right medications for me. I had a loving husband and 2 kids. (Still do). I did try to commit suicide before I went in the hospital. I'm very lucky that it did not work. Because today my meds work and I am really happy with my family. I know that you think there is no God but there is. He is always watching over you. He sends people like me and others here into your life to help you. You reached out, you want help not death. Find a 24 hour crisis centre or get someone to take you to the hospital. The hospital always helps if you say you are suicidal. Don't give up, you are not alone to go through this. I will friend you if you want to write to me. Also you have alot of caring people here willing to help too. Keep in touch o.k. I will keep you in my prayers. God help me through this he can help you too.
whatever you do PLEASE don't make the mistake of doing something that you cannot change, severe pain alters the way you look and think about things, U don't have to live this way, emergency rooms are there for a reason studies have been done on pain and its effects on beings as a whole, what would such a thing do to your family? Would you want one of them to destroy themselves if they were hurting? you would want to know so you could find a way somehow to help, they deserve a chance to help you help yourself, give someone out there a chance, Life is really worth the fight I have lived with pain since 2000, I have hurt so bad I was afraid I might not live You just don't give up it's easy but once it's done its a situation that can't be changed!! Unless I cared a whole lot I would not try as hard as I am to convince you of how much your life really means!! You matter just remember that, Please get the help you need and then allow us the chance to hear from you We do care
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