I have been sinking into deeper depression than I am used to. I am usually on the manic side. It is to the point where this weekend I had to give my fiance my meds so I wouldn't be overwhelmed with things spiraling out of control and become impulsive. I can't take anti-depressants. They have talked about doing ECT but have heard too many horror stories to feel comfortable doing that. I dont know what else to try. I think I have been on everything on the market in the past 20 years and I dont know how many combinations. I am just so sick of all this. No one to talk to here. Only friends are online except for fiance and he tries to help but since he doesn't have any "issues" it is hard for him to understand.