My boyfriend of a year and a half is a recovering addict I just had a miscarriage 2 weeks ago and he is taking it very hard. Recently I found out that he has been lying to me and spending money carelessly on keno and alcohol, but i'm afraid there are more lies and possibly drugs. I feel bad for accusing him, he has admitted to slipping up and using pills a few times, but swears he isn't using now. I'm just so afraid and want to get him help if he is, and I need to know how to trust him again if he isn't... so how do I know if he is since i know he wont just tell me?