I was diagnosed with RA and Fibromyalgia 2 years ago. Months before, I was in an auto accident which caused problems in my back. I've always been active playing softball, volleyball, and working out... but now, I can barely get out of bed and get ready for work. Depression has overcome me and I cannot get my meds regulated. I am taking hydroxychloroquine for the RA, and in my third week of Savella for the Fibromyalgia. For the pain of both, I take Oxycontin (time release) every morning and 15 mg. Oxycodone 3x daily. Sometimes, it is not enough for the pain and that brings on anxiety and more depression. I tried Lyrica but the weight gain of 15 lbs. in 2 weeks was dreadful and stressful and again... depressing. I have family issues that are plaguing me and I can't take much more. An LOA from work may be in the very near future, but I've not had this job 2 years yet and it took me 2 years to get it. Please... I have nowhere else to turn... can anyone help?
I am so sorry. I know how you feel... we all do here. Right now, all you need is time. You must literally, take one small step, then another. With time, a little luck, a lot of prayer and a good rheumatologist, you will be able to start again. If there were easy answers we wouldn't need this group, we would be back to playing and living once again. Before this happened to me, I Jazzercised religiously, 4 times per week. I loved to dance, move, be alive. Then one day it was all gone.
With me and with a lot of us, we couldnt even get any kind of Dr to listen or even believe us. You sound as if that isnt an issue for you. For that I am happy that you will never feel that pain along with the physical pain.
Please, please, please, get help anywhere, anyway you can with the stress, anger and hopelessness, everything in your life can be fixed, helped or replaced... EXCEPT YOU. If you are the breadwinner of a family, worrying won't make the future go away, unfortunately, so worry only about today, tomorrow isn't here yet.
I had to quit a job I had had for 10 years because I couldn't complete an entire day without being crippled by the end of it. That was in October 2012. Now, my meds have worked, kicked in, Plaquenil, Methotrexate and Cymbalta for RA and Fibro. I am going back to work, on call and filling vacations. I never thought I would ever be as good as I am now. This will happen to you as well. It just takes a bit of time.
Forgive me if I seem as if I making little of your struggles, I am not, I have been there. I tried to die, thankfully, I wasn't successful. I scared my husband so much he actually watches to make sure I take my Cymbalta. If I cry, he has to determine if I am crying over a Chick Flick or something dark. I don't know why he stayed with me but he did and he still is. I thought only of myself and not what I was doing to my family. The pain is overwhelming, another useless word because for those who don't have this, there is no words to adequately describe living like this daily or realizing this is "me" for the rest of my days. That is extremely defeating. That is why we must always find hope somewhere, even if it is hoping for the rain to stop and a daffodil to come up.
Please, please, please, get help.
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