Am I the only one who questions their purpose here on earth? I'm 45, in constant pain from Lupus and degenerative disk disease, I have high blood pressure that despite so many doctors, can not get regulated, my job is beyond stressful, my young adult children still living at home are less than helpful, My world fell apart 10 years when ago when My Dad died and even further 5 years ago when I lost my husband. I'm trying to see a purpose but quite honestly if everyone knew the thoughts that went through my head or the prayers I pray at night, they would be greatly disappointed in me.