I have an auto inflammatory disorder which has caused a great deal of pain. ( not that it really matters what ultimately lead to this point). About a year ago my doctor wrote me a script for norco. One twice a day. It was really something to have an alternative to ibuprofen and Tylenol. It was more effective. Well two a day turned into 4 and you can pretty much figure out the rest of how that went. It's embarrassing. I know it's a high, but what really got me was How much better I felt about my life, about myself and the motivation that came with it. Something I had never known. I crave that... I hate that... And I am afraid that now that I have know it... the desire will never go away. It will always be a part of me. It is consuming. I have been without for a few weeks before. I am not worried so much about more severe symptoms of withdraw although I have gone threw days of feeling "heavy" if that rings familiar to anyone. Moving about took quite a bit of effort and was ultimately exhausting. I have done things I'm not proud of. I have become something I never was. I am afraid it will never go away... Now that I know that feeling... That contentment. there is not a day that I don't think about it. I feel ruined.
You are NOT "ruined"! Yes, that high that you felt/feel is a very addictive siren's song. It has indeed wrecked millions of lives, YET you are aware of your cravings, that is a huge thing! Many people that are addicted to opiates never, ever even consider the fact that they are craving that high. Many go through life with blinders on, but NOT you! That is the good news.
The thing you must now do is decide what you will do with this information about yourself. Will you continue to chase that high or will you fight?
It sounds as if you are quite ready to do battle. To wage war upon your cravings and your addiction to opiates! That is no small thing, it is ginormous and you will do this with everything in your soul. You've already done the first step, you've admitted that there exists a problem. Hurrah for you, Ladybug28!
Now, what are you willing to do about your problem?
It sounds like you have real insight into your problem. I think talking to a therapist could help you gain control over the craving for feeling good. Those of us who go through life in chronic pain can relate to wanting to feel normal and good about ourselves. We certainly won't judge that here.
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