I have an auto inflammatory disorder which has caused a great deal of pain. ( not that it really matters what ultimately lead to this point). About a year ago my doctor wrote me a script for norco. One twice a day. It was really something to have an alternative to ibuprofen and Tylenol. It was more effective. Well two a day turned into 4 and you can pretty much figure out the rest of how that went. It's embarrassing. I know it's a high, but what really got me was How much better I felt about my life, about myself and the motivation that came with it. Something I had never known. I crave that... I hate that... And I am afraid that now that I have know it... the desire will never go away. It will always be a part of me. It is consuming. I have been without for a few weeks before. I am not worried so much about more severe symptoms of withdraw although I have gone threw days of feeling "heavy" if that rings familiar to anyone. Moving about took quite a bit of effort and was ultimately exhausting. I have done things I'm not proud of. I have become something I never was. I am afraid it will never go away... Now that I know that feeling... That contentment. there is not a day that I don't think about it. I feel ruined.