... on the situation I posted about a month ago. Depositions start tomorrow (Thurs) and I am already in hotel not far from court house. Someone from Attorney Generals Office will come to get me in the morning. The new defense team has a reputation for being brutal and they have already encouraged several "rally's" from pro lifers that took place on court house steps in an attempt to get public sympathy. I find I am more nervous than usual. Been here, done this, many times over the years. This criminal that has taken at least one life and tried to take mine is now very sick, or so they say. He does not want to die in prison and the whole point of these meetings is to break me down. I know this ahead of time, not afraid of them, afraid of me, afraid I won't be strong enough to go thru details of that fateful night and have them question me on every little detail. I honestly feel in my heart I am doing the right thing. The AG's office is very supportive and they always have a victims liason handy to talk to me if I need it. You all know the details from my 1st post and have to say I got such wonderful support I felt I could do anything. Now that it is only hours away, I am filled with self doubt. Have not changed my mind about what is right and wrong, but, have felt bad for several days before coming here, and really feel inadequate, not the strong person I have usually talked my self into. They feed on fear, know which questions tear me up and which ones that make me tell details that turn my stomach inside out. Part of their ""game". We have 2 days crammed full of this stuff. They asked for 3, but, I knew I wouldn't hold up that long, so here I am, unable to sleep. For those of you that read my 1st post and the following comments and responses, I ask that some how you send a prayer my way, or well wishes, anything to help get me thru this. Won't have much time for computer, but, will return home on Sat. D day is here for me, again, and I pray I can withstand all the questioning. Will check in Sat when I get home. I am simply asking, once again, for your support, your ideas, suggestions, ANYTHING you want to share. I need to know, that in the eyes of the majority, I am doing the right thing. Many thanks for all who care enough to read this, and many blessings to all who have endured, as I have. I am asking, in advance, for anyone to reach out to me after Sat to chat, share, vent, whatever. I most certainly will need you then. Be well, my friends, my DC family...