... disassociation and severe PTSD due to childhood events. I was just diagnosed with PTSD 5 years ago (although I'd long suspected it) with a wonderful therapist, besides medication I've done EMDR(no noticeable improvement) and regression therapy. For many years I apparently "wake up" after I fall asleep. I appear to be "me" (no schizophrenia) yet I'm a terrible, cruel person. I then lay back down "wake up" and have absolutely NO memory of it. Its almost caused a divorce, its not a medication issue nor is there a noticeable "trigger". Has anyone experienced anything like this? I've also become aware that I have night terrors about 2-4x a week and am completely shocked (yet it makes so much sense! Finally!) Can anyone relate, offer advice, anything?