I think I may have depression. My mum has it and not a day goes by where I spend at least three hours feeling miserable. I often think there is no hope for me and the desire to self-harm is strong. I have a very low self image, I often label myself as a 'worthless attention whore' or something similar. Even for asking this question I feel pathetic. I'm scared of getting counselling and I'm not sure how to deal with my feelings. My genetic father was mentally ill, though I don't know what he had.
I just feel I really need help, as I wish to become a paramedic in the future and I have to overcome this in order to achieve my goal.
Hello. So happy you are writing and asking questions. Depression can run in a family. But it doesn't have to be a tragedy. It doesn't need to appear either. Depression is treatable. It takes time to find the right fit of medication and counseling. Therapy is essential if you want real relief. A good therapist is as important as a good doctor. They help us solve the problems that we haven't. They teach us how to cope with the bumps in life and the unexpected. We learn how to rebuild self confidence and self worth. You would be very surprised to know how many people have gotten real help from medication and therapy. Be they movie stars or a friend. Millions have gone through depression. You can learn how to turn off that tape in your head that collects all the bad things you have ever heard and replace it with the real you. Because you wrote you do know that suicide is a dumb idea.
You know what kept me going when in my twenties? I really, really wanted to know how my life would be if I wasn't so sad. What is your reason? you have even more goals than an EMS like marriage. love, perhaps a family, great friends, success. By the way, that is an incredible goal and I greatly appreciate their service. Wonderful people. There are never enough people dedicated to that work. You would be strongly welcomed. So what do you want to do to get there? Karen
Hello SJACadet. I suggest if possible that you have a diagnosis, as to the classification of depression. The forms do vary. From reactive, primary, Atypical etc. Once defined, you might be receiving the course of treatment to ease your concerns. Regards pledge
Hello there, it does sound like you have depression but you need to go to your doctor to find out for sure. I was diagnosed with depression years ago, when I was a teen I spent a lot of time in bed not wanting to get up, I didn't like myself very much, I didn't want to go to school, I wanted to stay in bed and "not exist". I was bullied in school and had a good reason to not want to go anyway. I started taking Paxil for depression when I was 26 or 27, I feel better and have not as severe depression.
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