... pills to relieve my depression. I didn't realize that I would have gotten addicted, I was more focused on being happy for my children. Ever since my divorce and not being able to see my kids everyday because we have split custody. My kids are my life and didn't know how to live without them after being a stay at home mom for 10 years. Any how, make a long story short I ended up on methadone without knowing anything about it. I had someone coaching me and telling me it was the best route to go, now I want off after feeling normal again. I've been on it for 8 months now and I just went up to 90mg thinking I needed to go up when I really needed to stay low. Now that I've actually been reading about it I'm so sick over this decision I made to go on it. I'm so scared to be in pain. I don't have support infact hardly anyone I know knows I'm on it. I have 4 kids and don't know how will I get off this safely and not get so sick. I can't sleep at night knowing this now. Please can someone give me positive success stories about coming off this?