I feel like a little kid waiting for Santa to come with my presents. The suspense is killing me but I will make it through. I'm feeling pretty crappy but I have had stuff to do today to keep me busy so I am not focused on the time. I have had three hot baths went for four walks had lunch with my family even though I really couldn't eat but all in all not so bad because I know the light at the end of the tunnel is almost in my grasp. Ok yesterday on here some one said ( I'm not who I want to to be, I'm not who I'm going to be, but thank god I'm not who I used to be) wow what wisdom I really love that saying I have repeated it several time today and it has keep me going. Thank you Billy and pattishan and Vincent and all the rest on here who have cared to take the time to write me and keep me going you all have no idea how much it has meant to me I wish I could put a face with each one of you and who knows maybe someday. I can't wait to check in tomorrow with all of you to tell you I made it and how good it feels. I still got a ways to go and tonight is going to be hard to sleep but ( this to shall pass) I love that one to. Please if you all will comment or write me to keep me going it will truly mean alot to me thanks bunches. Uppy1977