No new enthusiam to do anything, started taking tramadol 3 years ago fora a bad back, was taking 4 50mg a day, then started wanting more as couldnt funtion proper without them, realised i wasnt myself when i didnt have them and hated the feeling of aching all over and the anxiety i had when i didnt have them, no back pain whatsoever just needed them.. stopped taking them 4 days ago and today feel a little better, not cried through the aching of my legs and not had any terrible suicidle thoughts but still feel no where near my old self!! dreading going bed tonight as my sleep paralysis as come back which i know has something to do with this which is making me awake most of night!! have to go work and carry on as normal with kids off school holidays and am finding it so hard!!! feel so alone