I am 17 & I got put on 25 mg of Lexapro for two weeks and now it is upped to 50 mg a day. I feel like I am not here, I am always out of it. I can be in the middle of a conversation and completely zone out and forget I am even there. My paranoia is so bad that I sometimes can't even be by myself. I have started smoking cigarettes so much more to try and calm my paranoia. I barely eat because I struggle with weight gain already as it is, but I feel as if I continue to gain weight. It has been about a month now and it continues to get worse. I have never had an actual panic attack before, but within the first week of upping the dose to 50 mg, I had two panic attacks. Tears started rolling down my face, I was shaking to the point where I couldn't control myself, I had no idea where I was, and I wasn't able to talk at all. This is not normal for me. I also shake 24/7, I have never shook in my entire life (on a daily basis.) I don't know what to do with myself because I can't see a psychiatrist for another month, but the paranoia is really getting to me. I feel like I am going crazy. Please tell me someone can relate and there is hope that I am not going crazy and it's just all in my head..