It may seem silly, I've been waiting for this day for months. The implantation of my stomach pacemaker is now less than 3 weeks away. I'm so nervous as this is a life altering change for me. I do ok helping others with their troubles. It makes me forget all my own troubles. I focus on others to forget my depression, GAD, GERD, hiatal hernia, fibromyalgia, and gastroparesis which is a paralyzed stomach. They're still unable to determine what caused me to suffer this illness. The attacks are more frequent and crippling now. It makes it difficult for me to be here as much as I want to be, regardless of how some may feel about my return. I'm not here to make waves with anyone, only to help others based on my knowledge and 25 years as an EMT on my local vol rescue squad. I love you all for the support I've received and should I get a lil spacey, please understand I have a great deal on my mind and in my heart.

In search of peace n serenity,