I'm a new member! I've read a lot of discussions on here and decided I'll just ask my own question even though there's plenty on this subject. I used to be addicted to pain pills before I got pregnant.I also didn't mean to get pregnant.. but I believe it was all meant to be because I would've never gotten out of my addiction and seek help. I relapsed during my 5th month of pregnancy and told my psychiatrist right away and was put on Methadone because it's proven safer to take. There's a lot more studies on people who are pregnant taking Methadone than Suboxone. I know this all sounds horrible but I had to do what I had to do and wanted to be honest.There's plenty of times where I wanted to kick my own butt for not being strong enough but I can't dwell on the past. I'm in this situation NOW. I started on 30mg and by the end of my pregnancy was only on 10mg. My baby had no withdrawals and no problems at all! The doctors were surprised and I was overjoyed. She was watched for a week and sent home!! I was blessed! She's a happy baby and developing perfectly. Now from there on, I went up to 20mg because my tolerance went up but my doctor and I have planned to switch me on Suboxone. I was so scared I've put it off for 3 months but now is the time.. she will not prescribe me anymore. She gave me two choices either go to a clinic or switch to Suboxone. I never had to go to a clinic thank God and it only cost me 7 dollars a month because of my insurance. I've withdrawn before because I ran out of my meds due to my tolerance going up and it was HORRIBLE. Especially the leg pain :(. My boyfriends mother is taking care of my 3 1/2 month old while I'm withdrawing for a few days. My biggest fear is I won't be able to take care of her and still be sick while I'm on the Suboxone. I just want to take care of my love bug and have my life back. My daughter saved me from addiction to put meaning in my life. Methadone is like a jail. Has anyone ever experienced this transition? I really need some support that's why I joined and I wanted to hear others experiences. Thanks a bunch!