Hi All,
I have struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. My doctor fairly recently diagnosed me as bipolar 2 but I don't feel this is the right diagnosis. I went over it with my therapist and she doesn't think I am bipolar either, certainly I have the depressive symptoms, but no mania. Currently, my psychiatrist has me on Lithium, latuda, klonopin and topamax. I do not feel any better, in fact, I feel worse, especially on the Lithium, which has caused me to gain about 20 lbs (which i certainly can not spare), leaves me feeling tired and bloated and needing to pee, all day. I really feel like I would like to try to tackle my issues without such serious mood stabilizers. If it is necessary for me to be on one antidepressant, so be it, but 3 mood stabilizers? I don't think its helping more than its hurting. However my psychiatrist does not see it this way and doesn't want to listen. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone has had a similar situation of trying to wean off of these types of drugs and to see how they felt being completely themselves. I've been on antidepressants/mood stabilizers for over 10 years, I feel like I don't know who I am anymore and that terrifies me. Any thoughts would be appreciated. Thanks so much.