I am married to a drug abuser. We have been together for 17 years. I am 34 with an 8 year old son. I have never done drugs and did not realize his problem for many years. he's done it all, heroin, morphine, pot, pills, now its roxys. We were separated for 3 years but I took him back becasue he said he changed. He is back to his old tricks. We moved away from our families 2 years ago for a new start. He is still using, stealing and lying.I sleep with my purse under my pillow for fear of him stealing from me. His family fully supports me and tell me to leave him. They are wonderful. He says it is my fault, because I am a bitch he uses, but I am a bitch because he uses. He works sometimes but keeps his money for himself while I pay the bills and take care of our son. I do love him which sounds absurd I know, I am currenlt in grad school but can't believe how stupid I am being by staying. My son adores him. I know I should move home, I do know that but I feel like I don't have the guts to do it. I don't even know if I am in love with him anymore, I care about him but not like I used to. He kills me slowly everyday. Sometimes I don not even know who I am anymore. Please help!!