I never had a problem with drugs, until moving away with an abusive ex. Once I returned home a year later, I began taking which ever prescription meds that were handed to me. It soon spiraled so far out of control that last year I began stealing my mother's medicine that she needs and is prescribed. I've been caught over and over again, and have come very close to completely destroying my family. I've wanted to stop, I want my life back, I don't want to fiend for pills any longer. My family is not sure how to help me, and I am terrified of withdrawal; I'm hoping its nothing like the withdrawal from antidepressants. Any advice about what has worked for others to get past this would be appreciated, as well as what to expect.
You seem to have made the first step, just by coming to terms with this fact is a huge step, and seeking out help is just that much closer to getting your life back. Sounds as though you have a family that loves and cares about you since they havent turned there back or given up hope. Perhaps you could talk to the members of family you feel closest to, and explain you admit you have a problem, yet feel unable to take it on by yourself, and would like for them to make you an appointment with your/their physician and accompany you to this intake appointment, and help to encourage you to go. You would be amazed at the amount of local groups and private recovery counseling is available without cost. You can do this! :) You already made 2 of the 3 hardest steps to get you back in control, and have those that care about you to lean on when you feel like falling. Its not going to be easy, but the greatest accomplishments in life rarely are. Something to look forward to. Remember its ok to cry, to scream, curse if you must, when you feel like you must let it out (preferably into a pillow or the garage if theres small children or any elderly kin w/heart conditions near by).
Community. Seek out some recovery groups and get help form a Dr, many are willing to help if they know you are serious. You can't do it alone, so, AA meetings (even though you do not mention alcohol), other share groups, like Teen Challenge (not just for teens) etc., along with solid medical supervision. Also, add to that nutritional information, learn about how eliminating all sugars, artificial sweeteners, getting ample hydration and exercise, even walking can ll contribute to your goals.
I applaud you for taking this step, but, be patient with yourself, avoid anyone who is doing any sort of drugs or partying. Getting your life back can mean total changes, including the company you keep. It's a long hard road, setbacks can be devastating so keep your eyes on the prize (engaging life sober) and you will get there. Oh, by the way, once you are on the road, helping others who are struggling is one of the best medicines out there.
Keep in touch.
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