... was on 2mg 4 times a day eventually got to 1mg 3 times a day. I got tried of it controlling my life and decided to get off it after 1-2 months of tapering off it I succeed in quiting it it has now been 5 months and I feel like I'm losing my mind my confusion is out of control I look in the mirror and can't even recognize myself, my wife, or my two year old son. I'm having bad suicidal thoughts. I don't know who I am my memory doesn't exist anymore I can barely remember what happened earlier today and anything I can remember feels like it's someone else's memory from a dream. I have 3 different moods sad, angry, or empty. I'm at a loss for what to do I support my family so I cannot stop working for any reason and I can't afford expensive doctors. I don't know what to do, maybe I just need to know if will get better from someone who has been through this. Any advise would be deeply appreciated. I'm exhausted every minute feels like I'm fighting for my life