Its really kinda sad?
- 27 Oct 2011 by mik934
- 28 Oct 2011
I read all the post and everyone seems to be on pain meds as well as myself but i am slowly trying to wean myself off as i have told on the site, the sad part is most people have no idea how much these dam pain meds will and do just mess your life up worse, i think i would rather be in pain then be the addict that i am.. you think your going to be on them short term and now its been 6yrs and nothing but pure hell!!! Pain meds are just a cover up but by time we learn that its to late and then were all on hear asking for help on how to get off the dam pain meds, its like a catch 22. I am now a drug addict and never thought it would ever happen to me, life SUCKS and some days you just want to end it!!! I hate these f-ing pain meds all they do is make your life worse and i wish i never would have started them.. Mickey from chicago... :(
I may be leaving the site but its not because of any of you guys on hear, you all have been very helpful and great friends.. God Bless to you all, i'm just fed up the site is very helpful but can be depressing! All my love to all of you.
Don't go! I am new here ,but seems like a freat site. I totally understand what ur saying. I been on pain meds for yrs,and I detoxed 2 times I was gettimg really bad with thee meds,I needed too. It's tough I know. Hope u decide to stay!
Hey Mick. No one said it was going to be a walk in the park. I could never begin to imagine how you feel. Theres something that I've read some years ago, and it goes more or less as follows ... If I could take the pain and suffering out from a persons life, then by doing so, I would then help that person and set myself free... Mick, stay for a bit longer if you will, we need you, you're a part of all of us.
Mickey if you go whose gonna listen to my bad jokes? I'm sorry yoou are feeling so bad I get pi##ed from having to take all my meds too. Someday I'm quite sure I'm gonna be bad that I'm adicted myself. You are a sweety and ill really miss you if your gone so please keep in touch you know how to contact me if you ever need to talk. Please take care your friend
hey mick, pretty new here your exactly right it is "sad". Are tou really a drug addict, or do you physically depend on your pain meds to try to live a "normal" life? i have learned that there is a CLEAR diff., I battled with it for years,only being 30 now. no shame in that you did not ask for your pain.I am a motherof three children, and have a very unsupportive husband, who accuses me of being an addict all the time. I have gone off of them many times at his request. Put myself through hell, so much pain. Not anymore i would rather be alone than in chronic pain. So #*#* him. I dont listen to it if he doesnt like it he knows where the door is. I guess my point is I know how you feel, please dont leave the site, sounds like we could help each other.
warm thoughts corilla30
Hi Mik, I hope that you don't leave. I reached a point where I almost quit because this can be depressing, but I've found that there are good points in supporting each other-sometimes helping people with a different point of view, helping others cope, advice given and taken on how to handle things. Most of all, it's not being alone. I think many of today['s doctors are idiots. On the thyroid section there are patients on synthetic hormone suppliments-the lab work shows that the patient is doing well- and for no reason-the doctor wants to put them on natural thyroid, patients on natural thyroid are changed to synthetic. The patients go in for required lab work, not because they have a physical or emotional complaint. They feel fine-the lab work shows that they are normal-but the doctor wants to change. You take this nitwit factor in the medical community, and we need support, advice, etc. It's part of what makes us so scared. I wish you luck, and I hope that you stay.
Here there Mickey
I think I know how you feel. Coming to this site, while being urber helpful with loving folks offering aid and opinions can become toxic, too! I don't know if that's how you're feeling.
I often come here just to read about others so I don't feel so alone and like such a effin loser. THEN, it feels like my whole world is pills. It becomes, taking them, not taking them, getting off them.
Then, at least for me it became how much suboxone, when should I take it, how should I be feeling, am I taking too much, too little, wrong time of day... so on and so on.
However, I have found this site and the people who come here, yourself included to be so understanding, non judgmental and ultra supportive.
None of us here can tell you what to do or what not to do. I offer this: just don't write this site off-not completely. Maybe you need a little vaka(vacation) from this site. Do so if you think it will help.
Being alone and staying alone with your thoughts, (stinking thinking) will only exacerbate how you feel.
I think I can speak for all here,
stay with us.
we need you as much as you need us!
best of luck and warm hugs are heading your way from me
Mickey, I can only speak from my own experience, hon. Pain meds serve their purpose, yes. But they can also create another evil that is far more difficult to handle on your own. Trust us, Mick, we've all been there. You can try to fight this on your own, but remember the saying: there is strength in NUMBERS! We are here to help you, but only if you let us in, hon. I, myself, have been going through a difficult time, pain-wise. I thought leaving here was the right thing to do but I couldn't have been more wrong, hon. We are family. We all help each other. If you need to talk, I'm here for you, just as we all are. Do what you feel you must but remember, you have a family here who loves and cares about you!
Dear Mickey... is there something that happened in your life to trigger this outbreak... or are you just tired of being tired? I am not trying to be a smart a__ but I can almost hear it in your writing. If you want off the pain meds there are ways of doing it... look at all of us... me, Coby, Jill, TO, amber wish... and others that I cannot remember at this point... but all of us are trying to get a clean life. We are on subs... but our goal is to be free of that also. Please do not be despondent. Please stay with us. We know you now. We can be of support. Yes, I agree, the pain meds DID screw many of us up... BUT, there IS personal responsibility in choosing to take them for other reasons other what they were intended. Many of us have underlying issues in out lives that were made temporarily better through the use of the pills. I am now having to deal with the issues for which I was self medicating.
How I wish I would have done that years ago instead of postponing because of personal pain or denial.
Please take another look at your situation. There ARE other alternatives. If you would like to PQ me to talk about some of this I would be happy to discuss them with you. I may be wrong, I just have this feeling that something may have set you off today... maybe not but if something did maybe we can help you. We are you friends... sure there may be drama here and it might get depressing but there is more good here than bad.
Please know this... anyway... just trying to help. I will remember you in my prayers... Pup
i know it is sad but i just hope you hold on
Hey there Mik934, I haven't been on here much since you have joined as my husband has been having surgery & then complications, & then I got sick with pneumonia. I don't really understand what you believe is depressing about the site. Could you please enlighten me? I have been a member since mid January of this past year, & think it has helped me save my sanity! I have found many personal friends that communicate via phone, & email not just on the site. I would like to be your friend, but like I said haven't been on enough to get to know you at all. Heck I don't even know your problems! Please give it some time, please?I'm not sure what you were expecting or whatever, but this is a good caring & supportive group of people with their own problems that are trying to help others with their experiences.
That about sums it up! Don't know what else to say except accept my apology for you finding the site so depressing, We were having some problems a few months back with a poser going under 5 different names on the site giving everyone a thumbs down on their answer. Since the site adminstrators had been told about this, it was investigated & taken care of, due to my viligence in helping to eliminate the problem. I do think someone else is causing these petty little problems, but it's they who are silly & immature, not us. We try to answer each question as truthfully as we under stand, & sometimes the truth hurts too. Like I said I do not know what you mean by depressing? Is it the whinning that goes on or not tnone intellectual aanswers? We deal with all sorts of peiple from all walks of life here, so most try to be just as genereal as possible with the first few answers un I am about to fall over on the keyboard asleep as I took my nitey nite pills about 1 1/2 hours ago & need to get some rest. Please reconsider your decision, or let us know why you feel this way. It may help us with others if this is your final decision ... P.S. I do hope you will reconsider that maybe you have something to add to the site to make it better.
mik please dont leave, we are family here and we help eachother, i know exactly how you feel, the pain is real and we take the pills, i too feel like a drug attick, but we are far from that , at this moment im on a taper off of percocet, and so far im doing good, its a long drawn out taper, but im ok with it,, wont you please stay here, and for the person who called you a junkie, shame on her!!! she dont deserve you. if its the not wanting to take pain pills the rest of your life, then why not taper, or at least try, but if the pain is that bad i say take it. hang it there cause we need you here. please reconsider. sending aloha and prayers your way from hawaii
there is a reason that I had to open this this morning I haven't been on the site much to some serious issues with health but I have experienced chronic pain from having polio at an earlier part of my life I have about 12 surgeries but I am so thankful that I can be as well as I am! I am on the pain medications and I know there are days that it is so difficult but I know that I have the pain and I had to make a decision was I going to stay down and not be able to get up and function and try my best to contribute and share and care about all the very special friends I have made (as well as the other friends that I have I made the decision to take each day as it comes and to be the best that I can be! to help uplift anyone that comes my way that needs support concern and the ability to share I really really really hope that you do not leave I am looking forward to the day when I am feeling well enough to be back but for now I just felt the need to click on here and I am ever so glad that I did! but in the meantime it is my hope that you will stay and that I just know that the caring concerned people (including me are on here in order to help you be the very best that you can be) Your friend from Indiana
I understand you feeling tired of being tired,but i hope you dont leave.
This site has many great people who can relate to you and we all have our problems and difficulties. I know there has been some crap going on over the weeks with someone been smart and answers being picked on but as Mary said it's a place we all come to wheather to seek advice and help,or to help others from our own experiences or what we think!
We dont all have the right answers or what everyone wants to hear,but we are here to help and can all connect in one way or another!
I had'nt been on site much either lately,due to my own problems,but i do find that when i do come on and try to help out others it makes me feel a little better that i can open up to others and that others can relate to what i'm going through aswel!
I know you're having a tough time with the pills and getting your head around the addiction side,but most of us have to take pills to either keep stable or for pain,we understand and are in noway judging you or do we judge anyone else on here!
I hope you stay coming to the site,it does'nt have to be depressing,it can be rewarding helping others who feel so low and down and out!
We're all here anyway wheather you leave and return or just pop in and out!
Take care and chin up,you will get thorugh these glumy days!!
Mickey, I really don't understand why you think that if you take narcotics that you are a drug addict??? I don't feel any different now than I did before I took these medications (which is what they are), except that my pain is more bearable. Of course you can do what makes you happiest, but I just want to point something out. If you take high blood pressure medication and wanted to go off of it, do you think that just because you can's stop immediately you are a drug addict?? Of course not. You have to go off of blood pressure medication slowly because your body is physically dependent on the medication, not addicted. The same is true for diabetes medication. IF you went off cold turkey, you could go into a diabetic coma or shock from either too much insulin or too little.
The same is true for narcotic medications. Yes, you are physically dependent on them, BUT if you go off slowly, it is easy to get off. The reason that you find it so difficult, is because you pain is coming back 10-fold! You are in chronic pain, just like your diabetes won't go away, or high blood pressure won't go away, and both will come back 10 fold when you go off of those medications too!
Now, if you are taking the meds, just to get high, then ok, you might have addictive tendencies in you, but I think that people outside of this community are giving you a lot of bull hockey. Maybe some doctor doesn't understand chronic pain. I have been accused of being a drug addict by many doctors, and I had to prove to myself that I wasn't as I went off of them three times by myself. Just slowly.
All I'm saying is think again about whether you really are addicted, and who is telling you that you are.
Your 'little sis" Ellen
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