... a while now we think it started in my early teens from a number of extreme explosions. I go to counselling and am only on medication for my depression and anxiety at the moment but I feel like I am destroying my relationship more and more every day even thou I am getting help. Every time I have an incident my partner withdraws more and more away from me I have tried to leave him and have asked him to leave to keep him protected from how horrible I have become but he won't accept it instead gets angry at me when I have a incident and then tells me how crazy I am before ignoring me. How do I stop exploding at him I don't know what to do anymore I feel like I am weak from allowing this to happen to me... And I feel like his reaction to this is making my depression worse :/ I feel like there is nothing I can do anymore I just want to give up