Tonight is one of the worst nights of my life. I just found out that my boyfriend of 4 years, who I thought I knew so well, is addicted to oxycontin and percocet. I am completely and utterly shocked. We just move in together 6 months ago, and to be honest, we have had a tough time getting along since then, but I thought it was all normal "relationship stuff" that would take some time to get used to. Now, with each moment that passes, it all makes sense. Here is how it started: The other day I got a call from our landlord that my boyfriend's check has bounced for the rent (we each still have our own bank accounts and simply split the cost and write our own checks each month). When I confronted him he said this was because when he was paying his credit card bill the weekend before he accidentally hit "pay remaining balance" rather than the minimum, or some other amount. Long story short, he has been doing some strange things like walking away when taking phone calls and making up elaborate stories to leave the house the past few days and I knew something was going on. I'm not normally a sneaky or snoopy person, but I decided to check one of his bank statements that was tucked away in a drawer of his... the balance read - $1,400. That's NEGATIVE FOURTEEN HUNDRED DOLLARS. I'm wondering to myself how a bank even lets you get that far into debt. Anyways, I also notice several, and I mean several, cash withdrawls over the course of a month that are anywhere between $100 - $400 dollars at a time. After I confronted him and he spun through another huge web of lies, he finally broke down and told me the truth. That he is addicted to these prescription drugs and has been for months. I am utterly in shock as I write this. I don't feel like crying, I don't feel like being angry, I am just in shock. I don't know what to do. I don't understand drug addiction and don't know how to cope with this. Most importantly, I don't think I will ever trust him again. So many things he's said, so many things he's done, and so many behaviors he's picked up over the course of our living together all make such perfect sense now. Even though they weren't huge changes, they were still there and now everything is adding up. Please help. I don't even know what I do at this point and what the next step is even as I finish writing this post and then think about what just happened some more.