Hey all! I thank you all and mainly my Higher Power for seeing me through my rough patch for those terrible 16 days W/O my Suboxone! I was called everything from Superman to Stupidman for NOT going inpatient for the WD's. Well, to know me, I am tough and stubborn. I tend to always stick it out till the end, on my own. Even if white knuckled all the while! I got to see my Addictionologist last Tuesday and got my refill of Subs and went on the Strips this time around. What a big difference! Went from 32mgs on the tabs, to 24mgs with the strips. I feel close to 85% less pain in my knees and L5-S1 Disc Herniation! I am back to the man I used to be. Functional, working again and living life. Of coarse, pain is truly subjective. But to my life, it has always been a crippling situation. With me, it is as I have stated, EXTREME! All or none... I either suffer immensely or try to mask it as good as possible. Never been the type of guy who is the one you see in those Wal-Mart Scooters, knocking people down! "Help, I've fallen and can't get up?" Not my ways! I'm the one you HEAR moaning as I limp down the isle! But I am ALWAYS the one who NEVER just sat and waited in the car! And with being BACK on my regiment of Subs, I feel like myself again. Facilitating my 12 Step meetings, reaching out to my Sponsee's and can once again, help the "other." Yet in MY time of need, it was YOU all that helped me. Even if by means of only words of consideration and thoughts, your kind comments and prayers were the "crutches" I needed and am now able to be the "crutch" to any of my NEW friends here that need me! This IS my calling in life. I have dedicated my life to training to becomce an LCADC and if I can save only ONE person, then I have done my work! I feel honnored that those of you who HAVE turned to me for guidance felt comfortable enough to do so, and can rest ssured that I AM here for you, any time of day or night! You know, the computer is a powerful tool. It can and does help those who may be limited to being homebound or less likely to approach a person in real life, reach out in this venue, and get the support they need. I did. I know that I will NEVER be completely out of pain! Chronic pain for me is everpresent EVEN with my Suboxone! But life does go on, and with the help of Buprenorphine, I am able to walk amongst the population and nobody is aware that I am any lesser. I am not. I am as equal and important as all of you. Individual and self reliant as possible. Yet we all need a little help every now and then. I did durring my harrowing 16 days and nights of personal hell! Don't let anyone fool you! Cold turkey from Suboxone is no different than any other WD's. I knew it was dangerous but really was kind of blind-sided by just how bad it got! It is how we, I, make the best of it and stick it out. So, IF I can be of any help to anybody else here, PLEASE, just contact me and I am right here! Just as I am for any of my Sponsee's. As far as I am concerned, Suboxone will be a part of my life, for the rest of my life. And I am ok with that. I am ok with being an Addict. A PROUD, SOBER Addict! Thank you all again... SuboxoneJay...