Im 18 and i started using coke a about 6 months ago... i guess i went a little over bored cuz now im havig a hard time stopping. Im failing school and some of my closest friends dont even like me any more... i told my friends and my boyfiend, everyone that i was quitting and i did good for about a week, i went to a friends house and asked me to do a line and i didnt even hestitate ... somtimes i feel like i can do it no problem and that it will be easy, but i get cravings... im embarassed about how ive been, i just want it to be over, my boyfriend comes back in a few weeks and i want to be off cocaine. for good.
You're in the exact position that I was 5 years ago. I started failing school and wanting to party more and more. Started with weed, alcohol, coke, every drug in between, then oxycontin. Unfortunately, nobody could tell me anything that would make the cravings go away. I wanted to stop, but I only felt strong enough to talk about quitting when I was high. Here I am, 21 years old.. a barely recovered addict, 1 month clean. I always said I was too smart, too pretty & it would never happen to me.. but it did. And I would do anything to take it back. If someone could've given me a crystal ball into my future, I never would've touched anything. It's up to you. And if you have any kind of friends/support system (I know it's corny), you should talk to them. The only place you're going is down.. take it from me.
I agree with sweetlemon. You really need to find some help. Rehab might be the most effective and fastest choice. Have you tried talking to a counselor about your addiction? If not, I highly suggest that you do so. He might have some alternative suggestions that may help if your absolutely against rehab. Hope you find somthing that works for you,
i am on here looking for help too. many nights i say i will never do it again, and then the next night i am repeating the process. you are in the 'early stages' it seems to me and this is the time to quit. i lost my love of my life from this drug, and it is totally not worth it. Stick with your true friends because they are the ones who really care. friends who abuse this awful drug will make you think they truly care about you, but more times than not, they dont. i moved out of the blue to another region of the country and did not do it for four months and came back to my 'so called' friends and am in the same lifestyle all over again. moral of the story i guess is, stick with your friends who really care for you and they will lead you to where you want to go. its hard, but do it now and you will be where you want to be
well you are young and this will not be the last mistake you make but hopefully this will be your worst mistake.
i did the exact same thing but unfortunatly i didn't have anything to keep my mind preoccupied such as college,i had a group of best friends that i grew up with and at that time was the 1980s and coke was the drug if you was going to be in you had to be in and with deep pockets,we all shared and when one was broke or out of luck we had the other to rely on.
my ray of light came at christmas time,i had worked my butt off to by my neices and nephew presents and me a couple of 8 balls because my birthday is the 26th of december i was allways going to have a white christmas.well i started my fun around the 22nd and by christmas eve came around i was out and broke and no one to fall back on because they was with family also.
i ended up passed out looking like i just did four rounds in the ultimate kick boxing fight.
i realized when i woke up late dec.26th that it could have been much worse,i could have killed someone or me and would have never known any better i was so far gone, so besides being totally humiliated in front of the extended family also and not remembering where $2.500 hundred went and then having to pay back the dealer all the fronts.
i realized that the only way i was going to beat the system was to disappear from my so called best friends for about 6 months to a year and never drive near the dealers street again. i succeeded.
you can do this and you already have a good outlook on it, you just have to take it one day at a time and think before you walk/talk/and praise yourself keep saying i can do this and befre you no it not only have you just won the fight but now you have all the other college adults looking at you for advice and inspiration, don't hesitate to reach out and get help,just be careful where you are reaching and before you know it you will be bringing down another star a new ray of light your head won't be cloudy until you get your next fix because everyday you wake up and say i have another clean day behind me just makes you all the better person in the world.
i truly wish you the greatest success in your journey of life, we all trip up and it sounds like you already beat yourself up over it. now move on.good luck.
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