I recently lost my bf that I lived with to an od of heroin. He had an addiction for ~ 13 years, but was clean when I met him. Clean for 5 years. I never knew him as an addict, although I now know that you are always an addict.He told me just enough information and said he was going to meetings. He seemed very off the night he went to bed, almost talking drunk, and now looking back nodding off but told me that he had taken sleeping pills bc he wasn't sleeping. He even had a prescription for lexapro. He went to sleep snoring. In the morning, he had passed. I later found heroin and 2 mg sticks of xanax. I'm aboslutely devestated, not only from the loss of him, but the betrayal-I had no idea he was even using. Looking back the xanax use was ~ 1 month,and the heroin no idea. Would I see changes right away? If so, couldn't of even been a week.
I'm so sorry for your loss. that is such a sad story. It is hard to say how long he was using. Only his dealer knows for sure. It is possible that this was his first sojourn back to heroin and he thought he could take what he used to or he misjudged its strength. Mixing it with Xanax was another poor choice. There is likely nothing you could have done. He made his choices himself and it is unlikely that you saying or doing something/anything would have made a difference. He has been flirting with death before. It is just a sad way to end up after 5 years clean. An addict is always having to fight the battle of addiction. Bless your heart, this has to be hard for you! Just dont beat yourself up-there is likely little you could have said or done that could have swayed him. Another sad senseless death to this nasty demon. Again, I'm so very sorry for your loss.
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