Im 17 and I suffer from extreme anxiety. I never leave my house because i am so on edge and scared of nothing. I dont answer my phone. I moved 2,000 miles away from where i am from because i had a very bad drug addiction to oxycotton, I was injecting at 15. We relocated here to help encourage my sobriety. I have started periodically using small amounts of xanax, I steal from my mom. I cannot explain to you how much it helps me. I feel normal again when i take it. I have a really good relationship with my therapist and I really want to tell her. The only problem is im planning on moving out and living on my own to start college in january and since im 17, I dont want to screw my chances and demolish the trust i have worked my butt of to regain. When I was young and ignorant, I took way to many xanax, 12+ yellow bars, overdosed and was hospitalized. I cant explain to you how much xanax helps me. I feel human again. I want to go out and do things, and socialize, I answer my texts and calls and completely refrain from pulling my hair out, which is a huge problem for me. Im currently taking prozac, seraquil and vyvanse. Im so scared to basically rat myself out for taking the pills, but they make me feel human. I am such a loner since I moved. My anxiety has always been horrible, but before I was self medicating with the oxycotton. I really need advice. Thank you for reading this, any kind of advice is welcome.
I to suffer from anxiety and am currently getting off of vicodin and morphine so first let me congratulate you on your sobreity from the oxys:) The best advice I can give is to come clean with your therapist and tell him/her that xanax really does help you. I know that it is a hard and scary thing to do but it sounds like your not living the best life that you can without them. I myself take clonazepam wich is like xanax just takes a litte longer to feel the effect of the calmness but has alonger half life so I only take 1mg in the morning and one at night. You might want to consider that as another option. I hope all works out for you. Anxiety and Panic is no fun I know but please get the right help and the right med so you don't consider the option to self medicate again.
I totally agree with alisha,congrats on getting off the oxy's,i understand how hard that is!
But you definitely need to talk this out with your therapist or doctor. I suffer from anxiety/panic disorder so understand tis indeed no walk in the park,but you need to get yourself proper medical help and you need your own meds.
Your therapist can advise you on what is best for you and you cannot go living your life staying in doors and letting your anxiety overtake your life,you are young and should be out there living life to the full,you need to have all this out with your therapist or doctor and even if you were to agree to getting a script for xanax but having your mum or someone give you your dose at the appropriate time,so then you cannot overdose or take too many,that way your therapist and doctor can be assured that you will not abuse the meds or take more than you are supposed to.(Just a thought).
In doing so,you are getting the relief you need for your anxiety but the security is there in knowing the doses cannot get out of hand!! Xanax or any benzo is very hard to get where i am living,the doctors here do not like giving them out,i am 25 and my doctor still does'nt like writing scripts and will still warn me about dependance even though i'm much older than you,its just how they are.Xanax can be addicting and can cause unwanted effects when you want off of them,but when they are taking correctly they can be a huge source of relief,but you need to talk openly with you prescribers and be honest about everything!!
Best of luck and i wish you well,
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